changes

[drummer18]

Well the last couple of days a lot of things have changed, and more change is to come but all i can do is take it as it comes. My father is one part of my life that i have to let go of and will, but there is one person that in the last 6 years i have called my little sister, that i may not be able to do so any longer. My father might be getting his third divorce this year, and im not crying over that, ive waisted to much time and energy on him. But the one thing that eats at my heart tonight is that i am about to loose a big part of my family, the girl i called sister although she was my step sister, she has become such a big part of my life and really holds a place in my heart. Im not sure whats gonna happen or if ill see her again, but i know that she will always be a sister to me. The first time we met was when she was five years old, and now she is eleven. Dont get me wrong shes a typical little sister, a smart ass lol. But i love her because of who she is. And if your reading this dont think im asking for pity or someone to feel bad, i write in this journal so my friends can read about whats goin on, how i feel, so they can really learn about me. But right now, this week, this year as it ends and i become 18, im feeling conflicted but stronger. I have a feeling that some changes are coming, some bad, some good, but i know ill be ok. I just hope that God will watch over her, my baby sister, cause i wont be able to anymore.
merry xmas, happy new year, (make it a good one)
-mike-