Sep 14, 2007 23:40
life is life
not much more to say
i having some trouble understanding why always put all of my eggs into one bucket. I dont know why i'm so dependent on a relationship. I wish there was explaining. I wish i could figure out how i feel. I wish i could describe this feeling i have, but i cant. I wish i could figure out how she feels, I which i could heal everything... but i can't.
I was so excited for CSC, and excited to spend time with her but it crashed on my head.
But i'm getting there i can do this. I need to not dwindle on this, and i need to make up my mind. I need to figure out the best move.
All i can say is "I'm sorry for the way I am, I'm sorry I'm not everything your not looking for. I'm sorry. I wish I could make us work." who know who i'm talking to when i say that.
I LOVE my friends... they have done nothing but support me through this i dont know what i would do without them.
I love CSC... except for the drama of my life....