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I forgot I had one of these.
HOW IS EVERYONE??? I miss everyone. I miss all my friends. I MISS ALL OF YOU! We should have a reunion. It's been too long. When was the last time I've spoken to everyone? EVERYONE GO ONLINE MONDAY LATE AFTERNOON (around 6pm) I'LL BE ONLINE! I can't wait until I get to talk to all of you. I'm doing well. Finally, i'm feeling freedom (even if it's just a little bit of it). It's a good feeling. Is it that easy to move on? So many people around me do it but how come it's always the girl who has an easy time moving on? I'm just wondering because it doesn't seem right. I'm going to try dating! Be proud of me! Since the girl I want is forgetting my existence and the other girl I want is infatuated with a kangaroo. Here I go again with Patience. Patience and I will get married one day and we'll have Responsibility and Generosity for children. We'll be the best and most bonded family in the world. I could accept things but I cannot accept that someone else is taking my place. It's my position to make someone happy, and i will never accept that someone else is doing that for me. I will never give up on love... But now, i have to give up loving her. Do you how much that hurts? Is she just stopping her or does she really believe I'm not worth it? Does she really think that I'm a shit? God, for 3 years, I've only prayed that she would stay and never stop loving me. All through out the struggle, that's what I really prayed for. That was the first things I begged for from you, but now that I know I can do it and make her the happiest girl on earth, I can't do it. Why are you doing this to me? Why do I have to go back to step one? Is this what you want me to do my whole life? Lose everyone I love? Are you trying to show me that I AM a shit and I can't keep people I really care about? Why does my life have to be so hard? Please... Give me an answer. Show me a sign. I'm so helpless already. Why didn't you just take me when I asked? Why didn't you just allow me to die when I was already dying? Why did you have to put out miracles on me? I didn't need it? I wanted to be with dad. I wanted to watch all my friends be happy. I wanted to be by their side all the time but you cured me. You made me well again. My life was so much better when all I did was close my eyes. Now, what am i supposed to do? How do i date and get married? I have to tell my story again? I have to lie about why and How I got sick? What do you want me to do? What does everyone expect me to be?! I'm not superman... anymore... The superman in me already drank krypt.
Remember when you help me tight and i kissed you all through the night. Just think of all that we've been through and breaking up is hard to do. Come on now baby, breaking up is so hard to do... now I'm crying, crying, crying, baby cos breaking up is so hard to do.
The only girl I care about has gone away, looking for a brand new start but little does she know that when she left that day, along with her she took my heart. Rain, please tell me does that seem fair? For her to steal my heart when she don't care. I can't love another when my heart somewhere far away.
Hopelessly, helplessly, wondering why, everything got to change around me. Hmmm... I tell it to your face but you lost your face along the way... and i'd say it on the phone if i thought you were alone, why do things have to change?
I've been singing a lot. It's good therapy.
HOW IS EVERYONE??? I miss everyone. I miss all my friends. I MISS ALL OF YOU! We should have a reunion. It's been too long. When was the last time I've spoken to everyone? EVERYONE GO ONLINE MONDAY LATE AFTERNOON (around 6pm) I'LL BE ONLINE! I can't wait until I get to talk to all of you. I'm doing well. Finally, i'm feeling freedom (even if it's just a little bit of it). It's a good feeling. Is it that easy to move on? So many people around me do it but how come it's always the girl who has an easy time moving on? I'm just wondering because it doesn't seem right. I'm going to try dating! Be proud of me! Since the girl I want is forgetting my existence and the other girl I want is infatuated with a kangaroo. Here I go again with Patience. Patience and I will get married one day and we'll have Responsibility and Generosity for children. We'll be the best and most bonded family in the world. I could accept things but I cannot accept that someone else is taking my place. It's my position to make someone happy, and i will never accept that someone else is doing that for me. I will never give up on love... But now, i have to give up loving her. Do you how much that hurts? Is she just stopping her or does she really believe I'm not worth it? Does she really think that I'm a shit? God, for 3 years, I've only prayed that she would stay and never stop loving me. All through out the struggle, that's what I really prayed for. That was the first things I begged for from you, but now that I know I can do it and make her the happiest girl on earth, I can't do it. Why are you doing this to me? Why do I have to go back to step one? Is this what you want me to do my whole life? Lose everyone I love? Are you trying to show me that I AM a shit and I can't keep people I really care about? Why does my life have to be so hard? Please... Give me an answer. Show me a sign. I'm so helpless already. Why didn't you just take me when I asked? Why didn't you just allow me to die when I was already dying? Why did you have to put out miracles on me? I didn't need it? I wanted to be with dad. I wanted to watch all my friends be happy. I wanted to be by their side all the time but you cured me. You made me well again. My life was so much better when all I did was close my eyes. Now, what am i supposed to do? How do i date and get married? I have to tell my story again? I have to lie about why and How I got sick? What do you want me to do? What does everyone expect me to be?! I'm not superman... anymore... The superman in me already drank krypt.
Remember when you help me tight and i kissed you all through the night. Just think of all that we've been through and breaking up is hard to do. Come on now baby, breaking up is so hard to do... now I'm crying, crying, crying, baby cos breaking up is so hard to do.
The only girl I care about has gone away, looking for a brand new start but little does she know that when she left that day, along with her she took my heart. Rain, please tell me does that seem fair? For her to steal my heart when she don't care. I can't love another when my heart somewhere far away.
Hopelessly, helplessly, wondering why, everything got to change around me. Hmmm... I tell it to your face but you lost your face along the way... and i'd say it on the phone if i thought you were alone, why do things have to change?
I've been singing a lot. It's good therapy.