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[drumhxcgirl]

Today was kinda a horrible day. But it ended alright. School was ok, but I kept thinking about what I was told last night. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I mean it all wasn't a big deal, I just dont like to be lied to. It seems like everyone is out to get me, or out to get someone else and I just happen to be in the way. Is it like that for anyone else? I mean I hate it. It's so gay. I just need to pray. I went to church today and I planned on me being able to talk to Dods about it all, but he didn't seem like he was in a good mood. And he really wanted to talk about this one certain thing. So I just let him be. But still... I don't get why I make a big deal about everything. I mean... when I'm thinking about it in my head it seems like it is, and I get really mad over it. But then when it comes out my mouth it's like its nothing and I'm dumb for even worrying myself over it.I really need to work on that. But yeah... I think everything is ok now. We kinda just dropped it. I don't know if it was really resolved.

But in better news.....

I start work tomorrow at
Build a Bear!!

I'm pretty excited. My first REAL job besides the snow cone stand. My first REAL pay check and not just get payed "under the table". I can buy stuff for myself now and not have to listen to Andre complain about paying for everything. I can actually pay for him once in a while.

So yeah... I love you all and thanks for being there for me to talk to.

♥