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So yeah. My schedual kicks ass. However Kasey has all morning classes so it doesnt really matter.
I like all of my professors so far. Psycology seems a bit weird but eh. The english lady sees dead people. Fun shit.
So she taught us this thing.
Anger is really another term for pain.
And i really have to agree with that.
its not so much that i was angry with jake for being an immature prick. i was just so hurt that he would write all that about me. that he would betray any trust in him that i had, not only as a lover but as a friend.
after maddy moved away everyone was all like i hate her. and i admit i was one of those who said it. but looking back on it i dont. i dont hate her. she hurt me and i was upset by it. but i got over it and it doesnt control me anymore.
i always told my dad that i hated him. i still do sometimes tell him that. but in reality i dont really hate him. i just felt hurt by him. hurt by the fact that he was never there. its not that i could ever hate my father but more that i was in pain because i thought he had abandoned me.
i guess thats the same way i felt about brenden too. with the abandonment. but he and i are okay now. and we're still friends and i still talk to maddy sometimes and the only person i dont have any contact with is jake.
maybe i hurt him too. i told him i didnt want to be with him. and when people are hurt they do stupid things. i think i can accept it now. i still do stupid things but i dont really care anymore.
so yeah.
that's what i learned today.
now i'm going to bed cause Kasey has to wake up at 8 tomorrow morning.
g'night
I like all of my professors so far. Psycology seems a bit weird but eh. The english lady sees dead people. Fun shit.
So she taught us this thing.
Anger is really another term for pain.
And i really have to agree with that.
its not so much that i was angry with jake for being an immature prick. i was just so hurt that he would write all that about me. that he would betray any trust in him that i had, not only as a lover but as a friend.
after maddy moved away everyone was all like i hate her. and i admit i was one of those who said it. but looking back on it i dont. i dont hate her. she hurt me and i was upset by it. but i got over it and it doesnt control me anymore.
i always told my dad that i hated him. i still do sometimes tell him that. but in reality i dont really hate him. i just felt hurt by him. hurt by the fact that he was never there. its not that i could ever hate my father but more that i was in pain because i thought he had abandoned me.
i guess thats the same way i felt about brenden too. with the abandonment. but he and i are okay now. and we're still friends and i still talk to maddy sometimes and the only person i dont have any contact with is jake.
maybe i hurt him too. i told him i didnt want to be with him. and when people are hurt they do stupid things. i think i can accept it now. i still do stupid things but i dont really care anymore.
so yeah.
that's what i learned today.
now i'm going to bed cause Kasey has to wake up at 8 tomorrow morning.
g'night