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For the longest time, as I wake up in the mornings feeling sleepy, I have imagined committing suicide by stabbing myself in the chest with a samurai sword. I've checked with some close friends and they said that it won't be an instant death for anyone who stabs himself across the chest. That'll be too agonizing, knowing that one is about to enter the realm of non-existence but yet feeling the intense bodily sensation of it every nano second before consciousness fails. What method would suit me best? I'm not sure and even if I can research on this, I'll probably never have the courage or brazenness to go ahead with it. Consciousness, memories and well, everything else will hold me back mostly. I should probably die inebriated one day. Then again, I can't drink without puking. It'll be messy. Darn.