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so i hung out tonight. i had soooo much caffine today. 2 red bulls and a cup of coffee.. i was so overly caffinated.then i came home from work (wich was a totally a tuff day.)[i just said totally arg]
so i came home and hung out.
ryan called me a bunch of times at work... i didnt answer. i made myself unavailable. he tried calling me last night and i turned the ringer off.. he called me this morning and i wouldnt talk.
then he just gave up i guess. now im wondering why isnt he calling me *BUT I FOUND OUT SOMETHING TONIGHT AND IT SOO MAKES SENSE* i wish he would just not be so stupid. im missing him alot right now. maybe us not talking at all will make him realize.. but maybe it wont.. maybe hell just have too much pride and pretend to not care...and im also thinking.. hes prob out hookin up with some girl. and that thought drives me crazy. ... but if he doesnt call then i kno that he just wasnt worth it to begin with. or if hes hooking up with some chik tonight then hes just a jerk that wasnt worth it.
but i just hope he knows that i love him so much and that didnt change at all. the only thing that has to change is his habbits and if im not worth a change in someone habbits then..it was never that deep.
but im still totally awaiting that phone call if it comes. GOD I MISS HIM SO MUCH. (and sampa does too)
so i came home and hung out.
ryan called me a bunch of times at work... i didnt answer. i made myself unavailable. he tried calling me last night and i turned the ringer off.. he called me this morning and i wouldnt talk.
then he just gave up i guess. now im wondering why isnt he calling me *BUT I FOUND OUT SOMETHING TONIGHT AND IT SOO MAKES SENSE* i wish he would just not be so stupid. im missing him alot right now. maybe us not talking at all will make him realize.. but maybe it wont.. maybe hell just have too much pride and pretend to not care...and im also thinking.. hes prob out hookin up with some girl. and that thought drives me crazy. ... but if he doesnt call then i kno that he just wasnt worth it to begin with. or if hes hooking up with some chik tonight then hes just a jerk that wasnt worth it.
but i just hope he knows that i love him so much and that didnt change at all. the only thing that has to change is his habbits and if im not worth a change in someone habbits then..it was never that deep.
but im still totally awaiting that phone call if it comes. GOD I MISS HIM SO MUCH. (and sampa does too)