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I bored so i thought i would post in here. So many things have been boggling my mind lately. I have no clue what these things are, but they really are makeing all words go into a jumble. I cant even express how i feel. I cant even feel for that matter. I mean it. My words they jusy dont come out right. Kinda like I cant fucking see or talk straight. i think im going retarted. But no its getting stressful. Today was a good day besides everything. Kari stayed the night last night. Today i went shopping and got a bunch of new clothes. Then hung out with Tony he is really sweet guy, but i just cant seems to talk to him right. Just these words. Im just going to give up for awhile. Talking and thinking its just getting to fucking hard to deal with. Plus all this extra fighting with my mom. Fucking sucks. I have been trapped inside all summer long, i feel like i am gaining weight. Like i know i am gaining it like a fucking pig. Im so sick of everyone offering me food, plus on top of that im weak. Im so over stressed with all the fucking cottage cheese on my fucking legs and ass. Even my stomach has gained like 5 pounds. I can hardley wear ne of my new shrts. Plus there is nothing to do. I hate sitting in my house all summer, but when im around ppl i just cant get close to them. Vinny is comeing up Friday! That makes me happy. I havent seen him forever. I wish i could just pack up my shit and move with him! Seriously if i cant...i know im just going to hurt myself. Why even have him around for like a day, if i still havent gotten over him, since like march. Fuck you man! You broke my heart and now i cant get better.