beginnings&endings.
hey you. i like you, but you already know that. you're fucking cute. kissing you and cuddling with you is fun, but i'm not used to making an effort, and i can be selfish. i should probably work on changing that. but yet, it's all probably pointless in the first place.
so all i ever do now is sit at home and watch movies. i'm reverting to middle school i guess. sadly, my cat doesn't find me interesting, so someone else needs to come over and watch movies in bed with me. i'll even make popcorn and cookies. afterall, it's been my dinner for the past 3 days. i'm very healthy, i know.
...i'm getting that feeling i get when i spend time with people i care about, or go on a vacation, and in the back of my mind, i know it has to end eventually. it's as though spending time together isn't worth it when you know that you have to say goodbye and deal with all that leaving entails. i think goodbye's are one of the worst experiences; they're so final. and definite. i'm glad to be leaving, but not knowing exactly how the finale will play out makes me analyze situations an unnecessary and probably unhealthy amount. i guess that's life, though. you learn to rationalize situations and move forward, even if you're not sure where you're going or who you're going with.
brittany.
so all i ever do now is sit at home and watch movies. i'm reverting to middle school i guess. sadly, my cat doesn't find me interesting, so someone else needs to come over and watch movies in bed with me. i'll even make popcorn and cookies. afterall, it's been my dinner for the past 3 days. i'm very healthy, i know.
...i'm getting that feeling i get when i spend time with people i care about, or go on a vacation, and in the back of my mind, i know it has to end eventually. it's as though spending time together isn't worth it when you know that you have to say goodbye and deal with all that leaving entails. i think goodbye's are one of the worst experiences; they're so final. and definite. i'm glad to be leaving, but not knowing exactly how the finale will play out makes me analyze situations an unnecessary and probably unhealthy amount. i guess that's life, though. you learn to rationalize situations and move forward, even if you're not sure where you're going or who you're going with.
brittany.