Longtime No See
Well it has been a long time since I have updated well I'm part of the "my space junkies" it really is addictive lol well there has been a bit going on since I updated last I am not really at Mikes all that much tonight was the first time I have seen him since the day after my birthday he hasn't really talked to me since then and I don't really know how to feel about that its kinda of like the cold shoulder toward me He and others have been saying that he has been really down latly and needs time to think about shit well that understandable but to cut out friends who have been there threw so much in such a short period of time is kinda strange friend that have done so much to help and have offered so much more its just so odd to turn away from them and to welcome others with open arms. well enought about that........
I have gone back fulltime to Ruby's Yea It sucks but its money what can I say I heard from Rob and Mellisa its really funny cause Idk about Rob but Mellisa seem to think that she can just start talking to me all over again and think that everything is going to be cool between us again and well she ended Rob and mines friendship so for me to welcome her back opened armed is fucking nuts I would have to be on crack to do that I have both of their new cell phone numbers lol like I will ever use them.
I other new I have been down on life and why for stupid reason well their not stuip but people have it so much worse then I do so why do I let this shit get me down? I know because it the shit happening to me not to someone else ME! Yes there are worse things out there that could be happening to me but Im down because of what is happening not the things that are worse. (I know this sounds so bad and all me me me) This is just how I feel I wish I had a better job I wanna change so many things in my life and I feel like I am hitting a wall their is so much shit that just seems like Im not going to do or acomplish.
I have to change the subject before I bitch anymore and become unbareable but there is just alot of shit. Well today I wen't out and did Christmas Shopping It wasn't as bad as I thought. Yay!!! I got everything done and well I don't know what else to say other then I hate Ruby Tuesday and Rabble Rabble Rabble.....
Broken
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
[x2]
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore
My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
Late
-MD-
I have gone back fulltime to Ruby's Yea It sucks but its money what can I say I heard from Rob and Mellisa its really funny cause Idk about Rob but Mellisa seem to think that she can just start talking to me all over again and think that everything is going to be cool between us again and well she ended Rob and mines friendship so for me to welcome her back opened armed is fucking nuts I would have to be on crack to do that I have both of their new cell phone numbers lol like I will ever use them.
I other new I have been down on life and why for stupid reason well their not stuip but people have it so much worse then I do so why do I let this shit get me down? I know because it the shit happening to me not to someone else ME! Yes there are worse things out there that could be happening to me but Im down because of what is happening not the things that are worse. (I know this sounds so bad and all me me me) This is just how I feel I wish I had a better job I wanna change so many things in my life and I feel like I am hitting a wall their is so much shit that just seems like Im not going to do or acomplish.
I have to change the subject before I bitch anymore and become unbareable but there is just alot of shit. Well today I wen't out and did Christmas Shopping It wasn't as bad as I thought. Yay!!! I got everything done and well I don't know what else to say other then I hate Ruby Tuesday and Rabble Rabble Rabble.....
Broken
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
[x2]
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore
My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
Late
-MD-