mixes: Reuploaded

Feb 02, 2012 18:09

All my mixes have now been re-uploaded to Mediafire following Megaupload being shut down.

I Celebrate No Victories & My Promises Are Sand - a 2014!Dean/Cas mix. Follows through from the start of Cas' fall and the gradual eroding of the relationship through to the end seen in The End.

Guilty of Treason; Abandoned Control - a Dean/Cas mix focused ( Read more... )

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twisting_vine_x February 2 2012, 17:26:37 UTC
Oh my god. This is going to be the sappiest comment ever, but I really don't care.

I downloaded the first and third one, like... a year ago, when I first got into fandom, and those songs have been a large portion of the core of my Dean/Castiel musical canon ever since, and I've always wanted to find the person who put those mixes together... and now I have!

So, thank you. ♥

Those songs not only became Dean/Castiel for me (tbh, most of them I can barely listen to anymore, because they're from a time when Destiel was relatively 'happy' by comparison, and they hurt to listen to now), but also helped me through shitty times in my life - I've dealt with chronic mental and physical health issues for years, and 'Everything Should Try Again' became my rallying cry whenever I got really bad. These songs also came all over the world with me - I'm from Canada, and I spent five months on exchange in Southeast Asia, and I can't even count the times I wandered around my exchange campus alone listening to songs like 'Maybe Tomorrow Is A Better Day', 'The Beautiful Ones', or 'Welcome To the Bottom'...

So, yeah. Just - thank you for these mixes. They've helped to shape my life, and I don't even care about sappy that sounds, because it's true. ♥

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finnickodair February 18 2012, 10:01:08 UTC
Ok, so firstly? I just want to apologise for the delay in replying - when I first read this comment, I just had no idea how to transcribe my reaction to it.

That said: thank you. Just... thank you. You have no idea how much this comment means to me, or how much it made me smile. Just... I put a lot of time and fretting into my mixes, I get OCD about the song transitions, the lyrical order, what story the songs tell as they go along, making the styles/rhythms flow. Most of the time, I think... it's never going to matter, no one's ever even going to notice.

And just... I was going through a hard point when I was making them - I was backpacking in Europe, by myself, living out of low end backpackers, suffering from depression, and being stalked by a guy who had me so scared I wouldn't even go to the cops for fear of what he'd do if I escalated anything. But, mostly, I was isolated and holding onto Dean/Cas and fandom as my line back to humanity. Knowing that I helped someone in similar circumstances... it means a lot. More than you probably realise.

So, just... thank you. ♥

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twisting_vine_x February 19 2012, 03:16:25 UTC
Aw, hon! This almost made me cry. I'm so glad my comment meant so much to you! If my comment could bring you even a quarter of the happiness that your fanmixes have brought to me, then my work here is done. :)

Seriously, though. Your music selection really did help save my life. And it's obvious that you put so much time into choosing your songs, figuring out how things went together... in addition to helping me when I was in a really dark place, your fanmixes basically became Dean/Castiel for me, in the form of music, and I can't thank you enough. ♥

As for you going through a hard time while you were making them... yeah, that sounds positively hellish, especially with the stalking... wow. I'm sending tons and tons of hugs in your direction, along with massive kudos. Backpacking alone while dealing with depression and a stalker - you're a tank for getting through that, honestly.

Knowing that I helped someone in similar circumstances... it means a lot. More than you probably realise.

Even more hugs. ♥♥♥

Also, m'dear - fancy being friends? You seem like an awesome person, and your LJ tells me that you love Dean/Castiel, Merlin, Sherlock, TOS, Doctor Who, The Big Bang Theory... all things I love... friends? :)

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finnickodair February 19 2012, 03:51:28 UTC
...And once again, I am having issues expressing my feelings at this comment; just imagine me happily wibbling at my laptop screen, and you'll pretty much have it. *hugsnuggles* ♥ (Sometimes I can challenge Dean with my inability to put ~feelings into words.)

Also, m'dear - fancy being friends? You seem like an awesome person, and your LJ tells me that you love Dean/Castiel, Merlin, Sherlock, TOS, Doctor Who, The Big Bang Theory... all things I love... friends? :)

Friends indeed :)

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twisting_vine_x February 19 2012, 03:55:39 UTC
Aha, no worries, m'dear! I have my Dean Winchester moments, too, in terms of feelings - I so get it. -hugsnuggles back-

Also, yay, friends! :D And oh my god - your icon. What is that and is that a line from some TV show or something and how is that so unbelievably brilliant? ♥♥♥ Now I wanna fall in love with someone and breed unicorns!

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finnickodair February 19 2012, 04:01:56 UTC
xD Actually it's a quote from one of my chats with amor_remanet on AIM... IDK if she got it somewhere or not, though. I stuck it on an icon because... sticking things on icons is just a Thing I Do.

And now it's probably one of my most used icons xD

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twisting_vine_x February 19 2012, 04:08:57 UTC
That's actually awesome. And I'm not surprised it's on your most-used icons.

Also... -basks in happy wonderful Destiel icon love- ♥♥

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twisting_vine_x February 19 2012, 04:10:28 UTC
Oooh, also! I meant to ask - are you all caught up on S7 of SPN, and what's your approach to spoilers for future episodes? I'd never wanna start rambling and ranting and then spoil you for anything you hadn't seen yet, in case ya wanted to be. :)

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finnickodair February 19 2012, 04:18:14 UTC
Oh lord, if we're chaining through all our Destiel love icons... we could be here a while xD

A LONG WHILE.

And. er. I... haven't actually seen anything of Show since... mid-season hiatus of season 6. It coincided with me finishing up backpacking and moving home to NZ and the horror of capped internet (and then torrenting ANYTHING was made illegal and everything got very difficult to acquire). And... I have all the episodes up to 7x11 sitting on my external and I'm just side-eyeing them SO HARD because... everything I have heard makes me think I'm probably better off just... staying back here, in "things are only minorly fucked up and could still possibly end happily" land. I'm in an odd place where I've sort of broken up with Show proper, but am still living in the fandom.

That said, however, I'm mostly spoiled up to the current episodes, I'm not bothering with spoilers for the show any more (and, in any case, have pretty much got a neat divide in my head from the end of season 5 onwards where season 6 and 7 are just Gamble writing bad fanfic) so... feel free to rant and ramble at me about Show. I honestly don't mind. :)

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twisting_vine_x February 19 2012, 04:33:14 UTC
CAN WE BE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER, PLEASE?

got a neat divide in my head from the end of season 5 onwards where season 6 and 7 are just Gamble writing bad fanfic




The only damn reason I'm still watching the show is cause of J2. Because I like supporting them in everything they do, and because I don't want to bail on them, blah blah blah - but it's been hard, because in terms of writing, characterizations, plot arcs, any kind of consistency, etc? Thank you, Gamble, for butchering our show. YOU CANNOT KILL OFF EVERYONE AND BRING SPN BACK TO THE S2-STYLE SAM&DEAN SHOW. IT IS NEVER GONG TO WORK. WE HAVE MOVED BEYOND THAT.

... Ahem. Lots of ~feelings.

everything I have heard makes me think I'm probably better off just... staying back here, in "things are only minorly fucked up and could still possibly end happily" land.

In all honesty, yeah - I'd say maybe stick with only what you've seen so far. And the fact that mid-S6 is the 'things could potentially end happy' point is sad all on its own, cause Show was already all screwed to hell and back by that point. I remember introducing my friend to SPN before S6 had started, and him being all "OH MY GOD THIS IS SO ANGSTY" while we were watching S1, and I was like, "Lolol, ya think this is angst, just ya wait 'til season five!" And now S6 and S7 have happened, and they make S3-S5 look like sunshine and rainbows by comparison, and that's just so incredibly depressing, because it was the APOCALYPSE, and it was still happier than where the show is now. I feel like S6 and S7 have just been angst for the sake of angst, without any kind of redemption - and as one of my friends said, who is the show trying to break, Dean or the fans?

... Anywho. Sorry. Ranting. I should just bask in the Destiel icon love.

-strokes your very pretty icon-

A LONG WHILE.

WORKS FOR ME. 8D I love Castiel more than I've ever loved any fictional character in my life, and I ship Dean/Castiel harder than any other ship in my life, ever... it's actually sad how dedicated I am to these characters. And if S7 doesn't fix everything it's broken, I don't even know what I'll do with myself. Probably get drunk and cry in a corner for a week.

/end ramble

Also - I've never been to New Zealand, and I live in Canada, but as someone who'd give just about anything for a chance to be audition as an extra in 'The Hobbit', I am seriously wishing for a Tardis right now. XD Was it nice to come home after all the traveling?

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finnickodair February 19 2012, 05:02:17 UTC
CAN WE BE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER, PLEASE?

Of course, bb! <3



Yeah... if I was somewhere where I could watch it live and have it actually affect anything for J2 or Misha... I'd probably be watching regardless. But dling the episodes doesn't really help them at all, so. I'm still debating getting the season 6 DVDs mainly for vamp!Dean (and completions sake) but... idk, especially after 7x02, I am more than happy to remain broken up with show.

And if S7 doesn't fix everything it's broken, I don't even know what I'll do with myself. Probably get drunk and cry in a corner for a week.

...*stockpiles ALL OF THE HAPPY EPISODES AND ICE CREAM just in case*

Getting home was... kind of mixed? Like, it was lovely to see Mum and my friends again, and be in one place and not be sharing a room with five strangers, but at the same time... after two years of being on my own, doing things when I wanted, and... not worrying about work on more than a casual basis or looking after anyone else or housework etc, it was also sort of jarring to have to get back onto a Monday-Friday schedule?

In any case, I moved to Sydney last week (living with Dad) for Uni, so I was only home for about a year... ok, technically, Sydney is kind of home, since I was born here, but... I left when I was 6, and I've been back a few times, but... I don't really know my family over here that well. It's going to be interesting.

Canada's on my list to visit - or, well, North America as a whole. I did a bit of backpacking in Asia, and a lot ine Europe, so... I guess the America's are next on my list. Gotta save up more money first though... *g*

I love Castiel more than I've ever loved any fictional character in my life, and I ship Dean/Castiel harder than any other ship in my life, ever...

ARE YOU ME? I THINK YOU MIGHT BE ME.

Oh! Also, I meant to ask in the last comment - do you have AIM/MSN/etc?

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twisting_vine_x February 19 2012, 05:34:48 UTC
Of course, bb! <3

Yay! Also, Rose/Ten gif for the win (asdfghjklgh, my heart ♥). I think they're... my only hetero OTP, ever? I just love them so!

Yeah... if I was somewhere where I could watch it live and have it actually affect anything for J2 or Misha... I'd probably be watching regardless. But dling the episodes doesn't really help them at all, so.

Yeah, I suppose there is that. Sigh. I just wish Show hadn't reached the point of chasing away a lot of its most dedicated fans with all this Gamble-bad-fanfic fail... I love this show so much, so watching it get screwed to hell is just heart-breaking.

idk, especially after 7x02, I am more than happy to remain broken up with show.

Very, very fair. Are you spoiled for anything to do with Castiel for the rest of the season/do you mind knowing what I know? Cause as much as I love J2, my relationship with Show my actually be over if S7 doesn't fix shit, and that's just so sad. :(

...*stockpiles ALL OF THE HAPPY EPISODES AND ICE CREAM just in case*

It's appreciated. ♥

As for coming home from traveling, and having to fit into a routine again, and suddenly not being able to just do your thing whenever - yeah, I bet that was tricky. Two years of traveling, eh? I'd love to hear stories! And whereabouts in Asia? I was just on exchange in Singapore, so I got to do some traveling all around there, too. :)

Also, best of luck with life in Sydney, especially if you don't know your family there too well. What are you going to school for? Hope you've been enjoying it! As for further travel plans... I may be just a wee bit biased, aha, but everyone says that Canada is beautiful, and they're absolutely right. Would love to see more of it, and of North America in general. Yay for saving up some money and doing more traveling!

ARE YOU ME? I THINK YOU MIGHT BE ME.

THIS MAKES ME SO VERY HAPPY. 8D

And I was actually going to ask you the same thing. I don't have MSN or AIM, but how about facebook? My email's e.minna.22@hotmail.com, and my name's Elizabeth... feel free to do some creeping and friend me. :)

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finnickodair February 19 2012, 06:10:28 UTC
Rose/Ten gif for the win (asdfghjklgh, my heart ♥). I think they're... my only hetero OTP, ever? I just love them so!

I... have a couple, but Rose/Ten are definitely the only ones I actually really read fic for. (The others are Alice/Hatter from SyFy's Alice and Kimberly/Tommy(/Billy) from Mighty Morphin Power Rangers).

I love this show so much, so watching it get screwed to hell is just heart-breaking.

Oh God, I KNOW. The first half of season 6 was bad enough, with all the TERRIBLE OOCness (though... ashkahdjskhdakjh roboSam, come back bb), I can't even imagine what it must be like to suffer through now. :////

Are you spoiled for anything to do with Castiel for the rest of the season/do you mind knowing what I know?

I know that he's coming back for a few episodes, and that he's going to be "different" but... I haven't bothered going to find out more since... ugh. Probably DNW. And... there was that comment of Jared's about... idk but everyone was going on about how the "twist" was going to be that they were actually in a mental institution hallucinating the whole time? IDEK any more.

But, no, go ahead. I don't bother seeking spoilers out but, as I mentioned, I'm not averse to them... generally, they just make me facepalm and cry a bit inside, but that's more Show as a whole at the moment and not the spoilers per se.

What are you going to school for? Hope you've been enjoying it!

Just my Bachelors at the moment - double major in stats and bio, with plans to continue into a Masters in Epidemiology.

Haven't really started yet - Uni year starts in March down under, but I am doing a refresher maths course since I've been out of High School for a few years, what with backpacking and working for money for travelling... and working to regain some of the money I spent travelling so I wasn't flat broke *g*.

have you been to/are at uni?

And.... I don't actually have a Facebook? Uh. I've sort of been avoiding it... But I think AIM lets me add people from Facebook chat... er, nope. Only if I have a facebook. Ah well. :)

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