and if you died right now you know id die too

[drtylitlebadger]

Ok, my last few days have been an experience. I will go back starting with thursday i suppose. Thursday Mike and i were driving ti churchland and we were in the left lane, well there was a car parked yes just chilling in the left lane with NO LIGHTS no one in it either, so mike gets behind it puts his right blinker on and waitis to get over, well this fucker wasnt looking were he was going was rushing and ran into us in a truck at 60MPH. I wasnt wearing a seatbelt(i know smart dont remind me)and mike knew this so when the car hit us he kinda swung his hand over to "protect me". well i flipped back and got a cut on my neck and have to go to the ciropracter now and he hit his head on the dashboard and blacked out for a second with a minor concusion. We both are fine now, but his car is totalled and i felt horroble about it cause he loved that car. Well on the good side later that night he told me he loved me for the first time. i had feelings like that but didnt want to say anything fearing it would be too early. I got about 3 hrs of sleep that night cause i kept seeing the car hit us and hearing the sound over and over again in my head, then i had to take 6 quizes friday in school then went to work that night till 11, i ended up on the phone with him and missy a little till like 2 30 then i had to get up at 7 to drive up to charlotville area to see my brother in jail for the firs ttime in like 2 years. It was nice to see him but also knda sadd. When i got home late that afternoon i went for a nice breif visit to see missy, and play with her guitar then changed and picked up mike and went out to dinner with the rents and their friends to the crab shack. i once again got barely any sleep (4 hrs) last night and worked today from 7 to 12 then attmepted to go fishing and swimming whic helped calm me down soooooo much it was wonderful, im fucking thankful to all my friends and family(extended too:)) right now i think im finally growing up. And they helped me. I found the man of my dreams, yea i want to be with him forever, i never thought id say that, seriosly. i know i sound crazy but if you knew how i felt, its amazing how my life has changed since hes come in it.

Well on a lighter night im starting to really like songs with piano in them and kicking myself for not learning how to play when i was a youging. Oh well i learned the alto sax instead. I want to be a cool guitar chick in a band with a cool ass singer(someone who sounds kinda like chino or tony from starfront) hey cant a girl dream? leave any comments