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[drslim]

i been thinkin alot lately. jus about alot of shit. life, love, looks, friends, hate, and jus alot of other bull shit that really doesnt matter. but today was a lil bit different not much but a lil. i was chilin in my couch thinkin bout goin to sleep when kate ash and sean come one oever and bring me to kates for awhile. i was started thinkin bout m journal and wether or not i wanna update and i realized like hallf the people who read my journal were with me right then. so it really doesnt matter if i update or not. and than i was sittin at seans house and like i was jus thinkin again and like the whole ordeal i noticed was that sean is such a total asshole to people and the things that happens to him never seem bad and like i dont think i wanna be a nice guy nemore. i really dont wanna try and help oter people cause its odd i mean ive always helped people evr since like one person opened to me and actually talked to me but i think that was the only time neone talked ot me at the time about nething besides some one else. i wonder if the only reason i keep askin people to tell me there sotries is because its im actually a nice guy or if its jus cause i wanna actually talk to a person because i wanna feel like i atually am close to people. eh wutever i dont even give a crap im jus not sure if i wanna be a nice guy nemore thats the only point to all that rambling

oh and im not gonna update much nemore cause theres only like five people i hang wit alot and all them have there own journals so jus ask them.