dead ends
so almost everything i have read lately, and everyone i have talked too. new people at work or old friends all feel the same way...
we all feel stuck and so maybe it is natural at the ripe old age of 19 to feel stuck. personally for me its not just stuck. i feel like my feet are nailed to the floor. and its a funny thing to me because everything has been changing lately. finishing school. starting a new job. being in a better place in my relationship than ever with johnrob. all those things seem forward to me. so why am i standing in one place. maybe it is a subconcious not wanting to change. maybe thinking that being grown up was so cool for so long has scared me now that it is finally happening. i dont know. i can't translate my own thoughts anymore that i have lately been giving in to others translating them for me. but i cant just back down. maybe i am at a stand still because there is an equal amount of new pulling me forward and old holding be back. letting go of silly old things is too hard for me. unfortunately its nothing in particular. i am a memory pack rat. things just dont go away. i guess its a good thing, one day i will be able to tell my kids and grandkids old stories of "when i was in school" :) i need to concentrate on the good things this summer. that is my goal
1. concentrate on the good over the bad.
2. take leaps and bounds forward while not missing a second of the life that God has given me
yay to danielle for challenging me to make goals for myself
we all feel stuck and so maybe it is natural at the ripe old age of 19 to feel stuck. personally for me its not just stuck. i feel like my feet are nailed to the floor. and its a funny thing to me because everything has been changing lately. finishing school. starting a new job. being in a better place in my relationship than ever with johnrob. all those things seem forward to me. so why am i standing in one place. maybe it is a subconcious not wanting to change. maybe thinking that being grown up was so cool for so long has scared me now that it is finally happening. i dont know. i can't translate my own thoughts anymore that i have lately been giving in to others translating them for me. but i cant just back down. maybe i am at a stand still because there is an equal amount of new pulling me forward and old holding be back. letting go of silly old things is too hard for me. unfortunately its nothing in particular. i am a memory pack rat. things just dont go away. i guess its a good thing, one day i will be able to tell my kids and grandkids old stories of "when i was in school" :) i need to concentrate on the good things this summer. that is my goal
1. concentrate on the good over the bad.
2. take leaps and bounds forward while not missing a second of the life that God has given me
yay to danielle for challenging me to make goals for myself