My grandfather died a year ago this week...
One of the greatest men I've ever known. I loved him very much, still so.
I'm having a hard time dealing with it. I was the strong one when it happened, no emotion, had to be strong for the family. I promised him I would be. I went to my grandmothers this weekend to help her with some things, and she broke down a little, she didn't show it much, but I could see it in her mannerisms. I had to be strong for her.
I feel like I'm breaking down. I don't think I've ever really let go. No crying, couldn't afford to. My Dad and Mom are a little sad too. I don't wanna come apart at the seams again. I did enough of that back in august and september.
*sigh*.
frack...God I miss him so much.
I'm having a hard time dealing with it. I was the strong one when it happened, no emotion, had to be strong for the family. I promised him I would be. I went to my grandmothers this weekend to help her with some things, and she broke down a little, she didn't show it much, but I could see it in her mannerisms. I had to be strong for her.
I feel like I'm breaking down. I don't think I've ever really let go. No crying, couldn't afford to. My Dad and Mom are a little sad too. I don't wanna come apart at the seams again. I did enough of that back in august and september.
*sigh*.
frack...God I miss him so much.