Entry Nine
Got a job at a local coffeehouse. It seems pretty laid back and shit, and I could use the extra cash.
Ino, Kin, you'll probably not be seeing much of me around in the near future because of that.
Be a friend and keep the sounds of your Shika-Free Celebration down to a dull roar.
Temari hit the nail on the head when she said I'm an ass.
I'm not a very good person. I'm selfish, whiny, needy, and I have the social skills of a wombat.
I'm trying to figure out how I got this way.
Why the hell do they even keep me around? How am I useful to them? Is it just an issue of familiarity with them? Would kicking me to the gutter altogether really bother them that much, if they sat down and weighed the pros and cons of their relationship with me? I haven't been 'myself' lately. I realize that. It irritates me, actually; annoys me that I could be anyone but myself, but that whiny bastard who's been wearing my face and clothes has made a royal mess of things with people he genuinely cares about. That Chameleon Boy who's been pretending to be me...he's been annoying the people around him, snatching pieces of personality to guard himself from how horrible he felt about how horrible he was being.
...
When it comes to going out and 'seeing other people', I don't have a clue where to start. This worries me, that I am so attached to Ino and Chouji that I barely know how to function as a standalone unit.
So I got this job. Even though I don't technically need it---not financially, at least. I probably need it for the experience, and the freedom to...learn how to not come off as such a greedy, lazy asshole with absolutely ZERO useful qualities.
Ino, Kin, you'll probably not be seeing much of me around in the near future because of that.
Be a friend and keep the sounds of your Shika-Free Celebration down to a dull roar.
Temari hit the nail on the head when she said I'm an ass.
I'm not a very good person. I'm selfish, whiny, needy, and I have the social skills of a wombat.
I'm trying to figure out how I got this way.
Why the hell do they even keep me around? How am I useful to them? Is it just an issue of familiarity with them? Would kicking me to the gutter altogether really bother them that much, if they sat down and weighed the pros and cons of their relationship with me? I haven't been 'myself' lately. I realize that. It irritates me, actually; annoys me that I could be anyone but myself, but that whiny bastard who's been wearing my face and clothes has made a royal mess of things with people he genuinely cares about. That Chameleon Boy who's been pretending to be me...he's been annoying the people around him, snatching pieces of personality to guard himself from how horrible he felt about how horrible he was being.
...
When it comes to going out and 'seeing other people', I don't have a clue where to start. This worries me, that I am so attached to Ino and Chouji that I barely know how to function as a standalone unit.
So I got this job. Even though I don't technically need it---not financially, at least. I probably need it for the experience, and the freedom to...learn how to not come off as such a greedy, lazy asshole with absolutely ZERO useful qualities.