And you are my everything. And even with nothing to say.

[drownthefears]

i have possibly got the most perfect life that is possible in reality.

i have the girl
the pals
the home
the money
even the future.

i love her
the isnt one bad thing
except how shite i can be haha
its just perfection.
there isnt even anyway to say it really
its indescribable

the very best people alive happen to be my friends.
most of them are also in my favourite band in existance.
if not then their doing something musical that i adore.

the best people alive.

i got a new house
its massivve
i have everything i need in it
and when i go to aberdeen ill be having either my own flat or sharing or something but even at that itll just be glorious.

i got all the money ill ever need
if i do really need it for a good enough reason my da would just give me it
on my birthday or christmas the past 2 years ive got over a thousand quid
thats not including gifts.

my uncle gary alone would actually be able to pay for me to go to london and live there.

and the future!
ill be doing photography in aberdeen
nicola will be right next to me in dundee
instead of 3/4 hours away here.
im getting everything paid for by my parents
ill be amongst the nicest people on this earth
i might even be a fucking celebrity just for being pals with some folk.

if we go even further
then if everything works
il be doing something to do with photography for a career
which will be something i fucking enjoy instead of just working to live.
if i can find people ill have a band that hopefully wont make you vomit blood as soon as you hear it
flood of red wont be so little no more
nicola will still be with me
the pals will be just as good unless its possible they get better

in the words of charlie kaufman

'i could die right now..
im just happy.
ive never felt that before.
im just exactly where i want to be'

goodnight
love
x.