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Practice today, Laura's joined the team and I haven't seen her since fucking middle school. Went out to lunch at subway and saw Eleni and Izzy from John Carroll, mini golfing, and watched Johnson Family Vacation. My looking forward/ not caring about school/not worrying about the hellhole was crushed when I got a letter from Minacepelli, I thought it was like an invite or something, saying I'm not in the Junior Class fucking Council. I cried. How am I supposed to get into college with no clubs or talented sports or grades? How? I worked so hard on that application and it was a big step for me to actually participate and say I would attempt to be involved with my fucking school. I can't cry. My dad doesn't understand. I buy more expensive stuff and they say my closets fool. Sorry I don't wear a fucking uniform everyday anymore and I don't steal like other girls. Other people have mothers to shop with. I don't even have that. It makes me so mad that I don't have a mom, things could be so different for me and my whole family.
- On a lighter note: since i've talked to alana online: Friday- NYC to meet w. my VE group- I plan to take the train earlier and go to the Met, soho, and the other shopping districts before we all hang out. I don't want to see RENT.
- Saturday- If I don't stay overnite, I have to be in Baltimore for Emma's 15th birthday/ old school all-girls sleepover and GET her a present in NYC! Fucking brilliant.
- Sunday-Family pool party at my dad's friend's Bruce's kid's party. Fun. Eventful.
- Fucking school Monday. AND I still Need a new wardrobe. I need to organize so it looks like I have room to put new things.