Either way, I wonder sometimes about the outcome...
Well I'm done w/Classes for the day and i think i'm going to make myself a schedule for this week w/the things i need to force myself to do. I think when i write it down and like hang it up somewhere where i see it ALL the time, it reminds me that heyyyy...i really need to stop being a lazy piece of shit and actually do something.
I didn't sleep much last night. Lots of tossing and turning. I have so much on my mind and I don't think i'll sleep sound until a lot settles down and until a lot of things are figured out. Eh. :( I had a horrible HORRIBLE dream and woke up crying really hard. I opened my eyes and like flung up in bed b/c i didn't realize where I was...and i was crying, and i could hardly breathe. It was the worst feeling ever...and i couldn't really fall asleep after that. :( I wanted to call ashley but i didn't want to wake her or anything...so i just layed there and had like a million things on my mind. :sigh:
So today i actually called Ashley's high school myself (to save her some time) to have her transcripts and everything sent to clarion since she obviously has to come heeeeere, b/c i'm a moron and didn't get into pitt.... :( I'm still really upset about not getting in...but i suppose i need to work on getting over it. I'm just thankful to have a g/f who is willing to like...come HERE for ME. I still have to pinch myself b/c i didn't think i could possibly be w/someone this perfect. I need to keep reminding myself that this is all real.
Tonight ashley's actually coming here for the evening b/c The drive-thru invasion tour is here. That's exciting :) I cant WAIT to see her!!! I'm not like a huge fan of any of the bands but Ashley really likes The Starting Line so she wanted to go, and i'd obviously go too b/c she likes them and i could be w/HER. I need to figure out like, when i can get tickets...they said they're selling them at the door b4 the show? but i'll need to get ashley's too b/c she's going to be a little late for the show, and i don't want them to sell out. i guess i can go over a little early, like...alone, and buy 2 and just wait for her to get here. I just can't waaaaait to see her and i cant wait till AFTER the concert when i can just lay w/her in my room and talk for a little while. I really need to hold her.
Actually, tonight i'm missing the signing of the apt lease BECAUSE of the concert, haha. I don't know if i wrote about this yet but...the plan was, if i wasn't accepted to pitt...ash would come here and she and i, and jess and crystal would get an apt together. Wellllll since i DIDNT get into pit tand ash IS coming here....we ARE getting the apt. And tonight we were supposed to sign the lease and give our $150 down payment but since the concert is tonight i really can't go. so hopefully i can just give my check to one of the girls and then sign the lease another time. Like, shouldn't handing over a $150 check be enough for the landlord to know that i'm definitely gonna get the apt? i called her and left a message on her machine telling her i had prior engagements and stuff...so i hope that goes okay. Hmmm WEEEEE will see.
So i think i need to schedule my classes for next semester soon but there's like a HOLD on my account or somethign b/c my parents didnt send in $ for something? FIGURES. they need to call and figure out what's going on b/c if i get stuck w/SHITTY classes with SHITTY times im gonna be a littttttle upset, yep.
Well I'm gonna go and see if tickets are on sale yet for tonight...and then i gotta shower and get ready for tonight :)
I didn't sleep much last night. Lots of tossing and turning. I have so much on my mind and I don't think i'll sleep sound until a lot settles down and until a lot of things are figured out. Eh. :( I had a horrible HORRIBLE dream and woke up crying really hard. I opened my eyes and like flung up in bed b/c i didn't realize where I was...and i was crying, and i could hardly breathe. It was the worst feeling ever...and i couldn't really fall asleep after that. :( I wanted to call ashley but i didn't want to wake her or anything...so i just layed there and had like a million things on my mind. :sigh:
So today i actually called Ashley's high school myself (to save her some time) to have her transcripts and everything sent to clarion since she obviously has to come heeeeere, b/c i'm a moron and didn't get into pitt.... :( I'm still really upset about not getting in...but i suppose i need to work on getting over it. I'm just thankful to have a g/f who is willing to like...come HERE for ME. I still have to pinch myself b/c i didn't think i could possibly be w/someone this perfect. I need to keep reminding myself that this is all real.
Tonight ashley's actually coming here for the evening b/c The drive-thru invasion tour is here. That's exciting :) I cant WAIT to see her!!! I'm not like a huge fan of any of the bands but Ashley really likes The Starting Line so she wanted to go, and i'd obviously go too b/c she likes them and i could be w/HER. I need to figure out like, when i can get tickets...they said they're selling them at the door b4 the show? but i'll need to get ashley's too b/c she's going to be a little late for the show, and i don't want them to sell out. i guess i can go over a little early, like...alone, and buy 2 and just wait for her to get here. I just can't waaaaait to see her and i cant wait till AFTER the concert when i can just lay w/her in my room and talk for a little while. I really need to hold her.
Actually, tonight i'm missing the signing of the apt lease BECAUSE of the concert, haha. I don't know if i wrote about this yet but...the plan was, if i wasn't accepted to pitt...ash would come here and she and i, and jess and crystal would get an apt together. Wellllll since i DIDNT get into pit tand ash IS coming here....we ARE getting the apt. And tonight we were supposed to sign the lease and give our $150 down payment but since the concert is tonight i really can't go. so hopefully i can just give my check to one of the girls and then sign the lease another time. Like, shouldn't handing over a $150 check be enough for the landlord to know that i'm definitely gonna get the apt? i called her and left a message on her machine telling her i had prior engagements and stuff...so i hope that goes okay. Hmmm WEEEEE will see.
So i think i need to schedule my classes for next semester soon but there's like a HOLD on my account or somethign b/c my parents didnt send in $ for something? FIGURES. they need to call and figure out what's going on b/c if i get stuck w/SHITTY classes with SHITTY times im gonna be a littttttle upset, yep.
Well I'm gonna go and see if tickets are on sale yet for tonight...and then i gotta shower and get ready for tonight :)