and the sky will never burst in flames and your eyes will never drown
I've been really angry lately..
and can't seem to control it..
Usually I just hold it in most of the time and don't let that many people see it but..eh..
Just little things like hitting people for no reason..or breaking stuff.
But im sick of pretending like I dont have an anger problem..
I have a physcotherapist appointment in august..my mom told her about problems that she thinks I have..like anger..and bad panic and anxiety..
I kind of can't wait to go..I just want to spill everything out to someone who doesnt know me and doesn't have prior thoughts and views on me.
Im really glad I have some good friends that are there for me..
I can be in the shittiest mood and some people can just let me put the problems aside and just scream, and do whatever
Just like me and stacey did tonight.
I love her
I miss rachael..I want her to come home...
I hope after I go to the physcotherapist I can deal with some problems that I have to face easier..I know im strong enough to do so Its just going to be hard telling the person a few things.
I just want someone to be here right now and lay with me..
But theres not..
I have no cigarettes for the rest of the night and its only 12 :20..that really does not make me happy.ugh.
I have so many thoughts all the time and I just wish I could put them into words.
and can't seem to control it..
Usually I just hold it in most of the time and don't let that many people see it but..eh..
Just little things like hitting people for no reason..or breaking stuff.
But im sick of pretending like I dont have an anger problem..
I have a physcotherapist appointment in august..my mom told her about problems that she thinks I have..like anger..and bad panic and anxiety..
I kind of can't wait to go..I just want to spill everything out to someone who doesnt know me and doesn't have prior thoughts and views on me.
Im really glad I have some good friends that are there for me..
I can be in the shittiest mood and some people can just let me put the problems aside and just scream, and do whatever
Just like me and stacey did tonight.
I love her
I miss rachael..I want her to come home...
I hope after I go to the physcotherapist I can deal with some problems that I have to face easier..I know im strong enough to do so Its just going to be hard telling the person a few things.
I just want someone to be here right now and lay with me..
But theres not..
I have no cigarettes for the rest of the night and its only 12 :20..that really does not make me happy.ugh.
I have so many thoughts all the time and I just wish I could put them into words.