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I dont even know anymore, I've come to realize that maybe im the one who ruins my friendships. Either the people backstab me or do stuff to hurt me, eventhough they claim they dont mean to, or people start to ditch me a lot, and then come back to me when that faze and that person is done with,or just leave me, or even just people starting shit exspecially when i dont even know them.
I mean i dont even know i've just been so..not feeling right lately and its just been getting me emotional. It makes me sick to my stomach and i dont even want to leave my house anymore, its like at this point i could careless about seeing anyone, except a handfull of people. I mean honestly i thought i've tried to be good friends to people, i've given up so many things that i love, and/or care about for people..just because i thought about them before i thought about myself. and where the fuck did that get me? I mean i can accept the fact that people dont stay friends withpeople forever, or dont stay as close, but i mean some stuff that they do is just fucking ridiculous.
And some fucking people need to mind their own fucking business and need to stop making shit up, exspecially when some of the people i never even talked to before, really..get a life im sure theres better things people can do then to have fake storys about me coming out of their mouth, but i guess its just a part of lame-ass highschool unfortunatly.
I dont even know anymore, maybe for awhile i just need to keep to myself and not really tell people too much, because obviously some people arent trustworthy and its useless now.
I mean i dont even know i've just been so..not feeling right lately and its just been getting me emotional. It makes me sick to my stomach and i dont even want to leave my house anymore, its like at this point i could careless about seeing anyone, except a handfull of people. I mean honestly i thought i've tried to be good friends to people, i've given up so many things that i love, and/or care about for people..just because i thought about them before i thought about myself. and where the fuck did that get me? I mean i can accept the fact that people dont stay friends withpeople forever, or dont stay as close, but i mean some stuff that they do is just fucking ridiculous.
And some fucking people need to mind their own fucking business and need to stop making shit up, exspecially when some of the people i never even talked to before, really..get a life im sure theres better things people can do then to have fake storys about me coming out of their mouth, but i guess its just a part of lame-ass highschool unfortunatly.
I dont even know anymore, maybe for awhile i just need to keep to myself and not really tell people too much, because obviously some people arent trustworthy and its useless now.