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Hello,
Man its been a full on weekend. i was at work on saturday and josh walks into the back sotreroom and say i have to leave now to come to the hospital.... turns out my nana has had like a stoke thing... shes probly not gonna make it past this weekend... i dont want to hear the news, i don't knw if i can deal....but im sure i will as always...
Then anita came over last nite just to hang after i got back from the hospital. It was nice seeyin her, i wasnt really in the mood for talking so for a while i just kinda sat there with music on, musta been hard for her. eventually i came to my senses (she was ment to be here for like an hour, turned out to be about 3). josh came home and kinda runined any kinda mood that was going, oh well. she left and went to kiss me but came to her senses and didnt, i was highly disapointed lol. havnt really heard from her today, one txt that wasnt meant to come to me. makes me feel like one step forward two steps back. argh!!!! oh fuk.
i feel kinda guilty cos i havnt been at the hospital much, dont like them... and most of my thoughts are on anita and not nana.... well within reason of course. i hate this feeling.
Man its been a full on weekend. i was at work on saturday and josh walks into the back sotreroom and say i have to leave now to come to the hospital.... turns out my nana has had like a stoke thing... shes probly not gonna make it past this weekend... i dont want to hear the news, i don't knw if i can deal....but im sure i will as always...
Then anita came over last nite just to hang after i got back from the hospital. It was nice seeyin her, i wasnt really in the mood for talking so for a while i just kinda sat there with music on, musta been hard for her. eventually i came to my senses (she was ment to be here for like an hour, turned out to be about 3). josh came home and kinda runined any kinda mood that was going, oh well. she left and went to kiss me but came to her senses and didnt, i was highly disapointed lol. havnt really heard from her today, one txt that wasnt meant to come to me. makes me feel like one step forward two steps back. argh!!!! oh fuk.
i feel kinda guilty cos i havnt been at the hospital much, dont like them... and most of my thoughts are on anita and not nana.... well within reason of course. i hate this feeling.