and what you see is what you get with me..
so yea.. got back from the mall a few ago..i got to see louie! the rents got a new car once again..pitifulness. hes so adorable. so yea..at the mall my brother did me wonders. i cannot believe i didnt wait for him before. hes amazingly good at this stuff. i got my dress. and everything to go with it..it is madd pimp. aw i cant wait to be with jeff. well..hmm. yea actually. i cant wait to be with him that night..but i still cant believe he likes shayna..and that girl laura. i really wanna know who this girl is..and everyones saying that he said he never told me about laura..welllll he did. so yea..now i never know who im talking to. and i never know if i really do have all that in common with him..ill be sad if i dont. :( i dont know what to do anymore...i really really dont..courtsenburger, leave me some advice please.. yer always the best to talk to about guys..your sensible.
oh..one minor note..i would appriciate it if everyone would stop calling me a pimp..because im NOT. richard doesnt like me anymore...although you all say nemo likes me, he DOESNT..scott doesnt like me either..neither does jeff pierre. and well....i turned greg down. because my heart is totally set on jeff. the note greg wrote was so cute..but i cant be with anyone else. i feel lke i wouldnt be happy. i cant hold on forever though...i cant do to myself what i did with chris..i cant. although im so dead serious about this kid..and i would do anything to be with him and both of be happy together, i cant let myself go into that depression. even though i like, already am depressed about it. i just dont want to be led on like i was with chris..i really dont.
life really sucks right now..all i want is to be with jeff. thats it. its all i need. :(
leave one if you have any advice, or if you love me..it would make me feel good.