heart ache
i had a long, lovely entry last night about how much pain i've been feeling recently. about how i feel as if my heart and soul took a running leap off of the top of the eiffel tower and landed with a resounding thud in the pit of my stomach. how unbearable this situation feels. that i will never allow myself to be so open to this kind of pain ever again. i thought it was shock, but it is simply that i feel nauseated before i can allow myself to cry, so i force my blood to run cold. i won't allow those raindrops to fall through these blue windows again.
i really do wish i was a robot. because pain from having emotions and feelings can just be too much. i don't even know if the good can justify the bad anymore.
am i alone in this? has everyone had their heart shattered into thousands of tiny glass pieces before, but no one talks about it cuz this is how horrible it feels? because people should talk about it. warn others.
heed my warning:
don't be naive!
don't open up your heart and soul and emotions!
it is not worth the inevitable pain of heartache.
don't fall in love.
but if you do, and you turn out just as horribly as i have, don't let what was once love rule your life. because i feel my sanity slipping away with every moment i think about this.
so that was nothing like the entry i had last night, but it'll have to suffice.
~me
i really do wish i was a robot. because pain from having emotions and feelings can just be too much. i don't even know if the good can justify the bad anymore.
am i alone in this? has everyone had their heart shattered into thousands of tiny glass pieces before, but no one talks about it cuz this is how horrible it feels? because people should talk about it. warn others.
heed my warning:
don't be naive!
don't open up your heart and soul and emotions!
it is not worth the inevitable pain of heartache.
don't fall in love.
but if you do, and you turn out just as horribly as i have, don't let what was once love rule your life. because i feel my sanity slipping away with every moment i think about this.
so that was nothing like the entry i had last night, but it'll have to suffice.
~me