oh. my god.
sometimes i just really want to rip the hair right the fuck out of my head. how is it that the entire planet's population has managed to piss me off all fucking day? i don't fucking know. first i had a hang over, but i was so trying to be over that, but as soon as i fucking walked into panera today i knew that wasn't gonna happen.
and i'm happy i didn't waste money trying to fucking buy those spiderman tickets. the only way to go on opening day is early. like fucking before rush hour early.
i am so fucking grumpy right now. and there are only a few things that could possibly make it any worse. one would be if i find out that laura fucking goes to see spiderman with someone else, cuz that is our thing, even if we did piss each other off al fuckin day. another would be if i get lectured to at any point in the next 12 hours, cuz i will fucking go off, don't think i don't have it in me.
and there is not even fucking dinner for me at my house. i get home, and they're having dinner, and i'm not invited cuz they have all the fucking food on their plates already. what the fuck ever. i'll fucking take a shower and make my own damn food.
so basically today was a total let down. from waking up from incessant phone calls all night, to not really being able to talk to jordan at all at panera, to having a hangover, to fighting with laura all afternoon, to her brother making fun of me (and her finding it funny), to successfully pissing her off. i regret it so much. i hate pissing off the people i caare most about.
and another thing i've been thinking about......to all of those people who say that i change and i'm not the same person that they met. that's a bold faced lie. i am the same person, but i grow stronger each day, and if there is a problem with that or with me then fucking talk to me about it. just cuz i'm honest with myself and my feelings and you don't like that does not mean that i am selfish. just cuz i have a bad mood for a couple days in a row does not mean i'm a total bitch. and just cuz i'm becoming stronger and more independent everyday does not mean that i don't want to see people or talk to them, but i sure as hell don't want to be lectured to about it.
well i'm gonna peace out and go talk to my mom.
~me
and i'm happy i didn't waste money trying to fucking buy those spiderman tickets. the only way to go on opening day is early. like fucking before rush hour early.
i am so fucking grumpy right now. and there are only a few things that could possibly make it any worse. one would be if i find out that laura fucking goes to see spiderman with someone else, cuz that is our thing, even if we did piss each other off al fuckin day. another would be if i get lectured to at any point in the next 12 hours, cuz i will fucking go off, don't think i don't have it in me.
and there is not even fucking dinner for me at my house. i get home, and they're having dinner, and i'm not invited cuz they have all the fucking food on their plates already. what the fuck ever. i'll fucking take a shower and make my own damn food.
so basically today was a total let down. from waking up from incessant phone calls all night, to not really being able to talk to jordan at all at panera, to having a hangover, to fighting with laura all afternoon, to her brother making fun of me (and her finding it funny), to successfully pissing her off. i regret it so much. i hate pissing off the people i caare most about.
and another thing i've been thinking about......to all of those people who say that i change and i'm not the same person that they met. that's a bold faced lie. i am the same person, but i grow stronger each day, and if there is a problem with that or with me then fucking talk to me about it. just cuz i'm honest with myself and my feelings and you don't like that does not mean that i am selfish. just cuz i have a bad mood for a couple days in a row does not mean i'm a total bitch. and just cuz i'm becoming stronger and more independent everyday does not mean that i don't want to see people or talk to them, but i sure as hell don't want to be lectured to about it.
well i'm gonna peace out and go talk to my mom.
~me