stuck in purgatory
this certainly isn't hell.....i've had too many happy times in my life for this to be hell, and clearly, as if i even need to state it, this cannot be heaven. therefore, this is purgatory. that explains why, for every series of ups, there is an equal or greater series of downs. why i feel like my life is simply a redundant series of tests, determining whether my character is pure enough, or honest enough, or just worthy to move on.
there are times when, rather than just being burned out of a picture (which allison did to one of us and put it on my car in the middle of the night), i simply wish i could be burned out of this life, because i am seriously burnt out.
i know i'm a fuck up, but when people who are supposed to be friends constantly remind you, whether it's a subtle reminder or not, i find it heartless. i try to be eternally patient with my friends. if they are too busy to hang out, i try to understand. if piss me off when i'm high, i try to understand. if they do ALL of my pet peeves, i still try and understand. but who knows. maybe i simply ask too much of people to be patient.
well it seems that that has done a fairly thorough job of cryptically summing up how i feel and what is going on right now in my head, heart, and soul. no directness. just general comments. therefore i'm safe from criticism and offense. consider this a disclaimer. anyone who has a problem with this,or ANY entries for that matter, may simply stop reading my lj. because it takes mature people to know how to handle and react to situations and things, and i don't think immature people have any business reading into the lives of others. grow up first.
~me
there are times when, rather than just being burned out of a picture (which allison did to one of us and put it on my car in the middle of the night), i simply wish i could be burned out of this life, because i am seriously burnt out.
i know i'm a fuck up, but when people who are supposed to be friends constantly remind you, whether it's a subtle reminder or not, i find it heartless. i try to be eternally patient with my friends. if they are too busy to hang out, i try to understand. if piss me off when i'm high, i try to understand. if they do ALL of my pet peeves, i still try and understand. but who knows. maybe i simply ask too much of people to be patient.
well it seems that that has done a fairly thorough job of cryptically summing up how i feel and what is going on right now in my head, heart, and soul. no directness. just general comments. therefore i'm safe from criticism and offense. consider this a disclaimer. anyone who has a problem with this,or ANY entries for that matter, may simply stop reading my lj. because it takes mature people to know how to handle and react to situations and things, and i don't think immature people have any business reading into the lives of others. grow up first.
~me