"All that's left is a ghost of you."
If i had known that August 26th would be the last i'd hear from you, i would have told you how much i love you, and how life is worth living.
But i didnt get to do that.
You overdosed.
You died.
I should have died too. With you. When we're old and have great grand-children.
But you left before we had the chance.
What am i supposed to do without you? Why would you leave me here with nothing but an empty feeling in my chest? You were everything. You were my world. The love of my life.
But you died. You killed yourself. Because life was too big a struggle.
I'm so sorry you felt that way. So lost and hurt and alone. So angry and confused and hopeless.
I keep thinking you're here with me, hugging me when i stand still, touching my face when i lay down, holding my hand when i reach out to where you should be. Or maybe you'll come knocking on my door. Or i'll see you out in public. Or maybe i'm going crazy without you. Maybe i'll end up in a nuthouse because of you.
Maybe i'll never recover from this.
Didnt you understand you were it for me too?! Didnt you realize how much i hate living without you?! Didnt you see me fall apart?! Didnt you love me enough to stay?!
Why couldnt you just stay....
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But i didnt get to do that.
You overdosed.
You died.
I should have died too. With you. When we're old and have great grand-children.
But you left before we had the chance.
What am i supposed to do without you? Why would you leave me here with nothing but an empty feeling in my chest? You were everything. You were my world. The love of my life.
But you died. You killed yourself. Because life was too big a struggle.
I'm so sorry you felt that way. So lost and hurt and alone. So angry and confused and hopeless.
I keep thinking you're here with me, hugging me when i stand still, touching my face when i lay down, holding my hand when i reach out to where you should be. Or maybe you'll come knocking on my door. Or i'll see you out in public. Or maybe i'm going crazy without you. Maybe i'll end up in a nuthouse because of you.
Maybe i'll never recover from this.
Didnt you understand you were it for me too?! Didnt you realize how much i hate living without you?! Didnt you see me fall apart?! Didnt you love me enough to stay?!
Why couldnt you just stay....
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