Already Gone...
Renfest was perfect for me this year. I got to spend time with some amazing people, and got to get away with being a complete goof in public because it was totally socially acceptable. Yay for bein' a fae!
I sat around and smoked a hookah for a few hours, avoided all the "big" acts and stuck to the musical and comedy shows, ate some great food, made faces at people and made little kids shy, danced with some doggies and got to play with a baby pug. It was an all around silly time and I doubt I'd ever be able to repeat it.
Though...it's funny how things can change in a matter of a few days. I'd planned on meeting with Mark on Monday to have yet another day of silliness, but instead wound up staying home, going to my parents house for dinner and a movie, and then heading out to Necto. Why? Well...apparently Mark thinks I'm better off with someone else. And you know what. I will be.
I'm upset at his audacity. I'm upset because he turned out to be just like every other guy who has ever made me promises. I'm upset that all those great memories I have from this summer have all but gone up in smoke. I'm more upset at myself...for believing he'd be someone I could be undeniably happy with. Again, I'm the fool.
But my Goddess loves me and has blessed me with phenomenal people to share the world with me. They keep me grounded to my sense of self, and know how to cure the blues. Or the pissed-offs in this case, haha. So Necto was the best way for me to forget that anything happened and just enjoy myself. I dressed like a gypsy just to get it out of my system (there was SOOO much gypsy music going on at renfest, and me...in fae garb...gah!). And lucky for me, there was a new, adorable smiling face to keep my attention all night.
Thanks Kyla :P
He's a really sweet guy, fairly normal, fun to be around, and pretty damn good to look at. He basically paid for me to come see him...which I definitely wasn't expecting. Took me out to dinner at b-dubs, then the hookah bar, then we pretty much just sat in my car for a few hours and talked. Monroe is boring...or else we'd prolly be sitting at a bar in Ann Arbor just bullshitting the night away. He insisted on pretty much filling my gas tank before I took him home...though I wish I could have just kidnapped him or something.
He's called me all day long. Got to listen to him get lunch for his coworkers, that was...entertaining to say the least. We plan to hang out again on Friday. I'm pretty stoked.
Anyway...gonna end this with a tribute to my Boy of Summer. Heard this on the way to work...how fitting:
"Already Gone"
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop
[Chorus]
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
[Chorus]
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
[Chorus]
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
I sat around and smoked a hookah for a few hours, avoided all the "big" acts and stuck to the musical and comedy shows, ate some great food, made faces at people and made little kids shy, danced with some doggies and got to play with a baby pug. It was an all around silly time and I doubt I'd ever be able to repeat it.
Though...it's funny how things can change in a matter of a few days. I'd planned on meeting with Mark on Monday to have yet another day of silliness, but instead wound up staying home, going to my parents house for dinner and a movie, and then heading out to Necto. Why? Well...apparently Mark thinks I'm better off with someone else. And you know what. I will be.
I'm upset at his audacity. I'm upset because he turned out to be just like every other guy who has ever made me promises. I'm upset that all those great memories I have from this summer have all but gone up in smoke. I'm more upset at myself...for believing he'd be someone I could be undeniably happy with. Again, I'm the fool.
But my Goddess loves me and has blessed me with phenomenal people to share the world with me. They keep me grounded to my sense of self, and know how to cure the blues. Or the pissed-offs in this case, haha. So Necto was the best way for me to forget that anything happened and just enjoy myself. I dressed like a gypsy just to get it out of my system (there was SOOO much gypsy music going on at renfest, and me...in fae garb...gah!). And lucky for me, there was a new, adorable smiling face to keep my attention all night.
Thanks Kyla :P
He's a really sweet guy, fairly normal, fun to be around, and pretty damn good to look at. He basically paid for me to come see him...which I definitely wasn't expecting. Took me out to dinner at b-dubs, then the hookah bar, then we pretty much just sat in my car for a few hours and talked. Monroe is boring...or else we'd prolly be sitting at a bar in Ann Arbor just bullshitting the night away. He insisted on pretty much filling my gas tank before I took him home...though I wish I could have just kidnapped him or something.
He's called me all day long. Got to listen to him get lunch for his coworkers, that was...entertaining to say the least. We plan to hang out again on Friday. I'm pretty stoked.
Anyway...gonna end this with a tribute to my Boy of Summer. Heard this on the way to work...how fitting:
"Already Gone"
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop
[Chorus]
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
[Chorus]
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
[Chorus]
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone