past is smashing through my window
i talked to an old friend of mine today... it was really nice. we talked about the davinci code and college classes and such. the last time i really talked to him was probably sophomore year... a little while after we broke up. i think that that was perhaps the sweetest relationship i ever had... my first one. we dated for almost exactly a year, and bowed out without hurting one another. i wish it was that easy to end all relationships. but then again... maybe after talking today it hasnt ended. just taken a really long time off. maybe thats what i need after losing someone... a good long time before i let my heart soften again. in that case... it frightens me how long i may have to wait with another friend. maybe that will make it all the sweeter when we get to say hello again. it sure was nice to talk to tom today. that brightened my day.