in limbo again

[drownedingrey]

i asked him to tell me
is there any hope for us?
or should i move on...

i've been wavering on this rooftop for too long
wanting to fall one way or the other

but he couldn't help me out.
he doesn't know either.

it's absurd that i'm in love with him
though i don't believe we fall in love with our loves
any differently than we do with our friends.

either way i fall, we've such a magnetic force
(and so many coincidences--
our childhoods, our love for ross, our coping mechanisms, our hair)
that i feel this thing is unavoidable. destined.
which is absurd, because i don't believe in fate.