Apr 22, 2005 02:03
Keith McHenry, a co-founder of Food Not Bombs, is in town. He gave a lecture and was just in our dining room discussing revolutionary and anarchist tactics with us. I'm so overwhelmed right now. I feel like i've spent the last 6 years of my life convincing myself that i should be alive, that i can do this, and that it's all worth it--working at ground level--and now i'm finally emerging from a bubble of priviledged blind williamsburg and realizing that this country is not only "not the pillar of democracy that we claim to be" (that we're taught from birth that we are)...we're exactly the opposite. We're fucking world terrorists. We care about nothing but efficient ways of making money. Nothing NOthing NOTHING. I want to do so many things this summer. I hope i have a way to get to richmond every sunday for FNB, which was such an amazing experience the one time i did it. I want to paint on sidewalks and dumpsters with my biodigradable blood.
What am i doing here? It's done so much good for me, though...But should i be paying for this?
Maybe I'll sleep outside tonight and clear my head.