For you Mark. I hope you’re watching over me.
Dear Mark,
All that I was afraid to say I'm saying now. I wish I had the courage to tell you these things while you were still alive, here with me now. I will never understand why God had decided it was your time. And if God walked right up to me, I'd yell and scream and hit him for taking you away from me. You were suppose to be my happy ending and now you're gone. Just ripped away from me and I never got the chance to say goodbye. I miss you more then you'll ever know, and more then words can ever express. And it pains me so to think I'll never see your smiling face. I'll never get to hold you again or cuddle up next to you when we fall asleep. I'll never again have the chance to tell you how much I had fallen in love with you. You were my support. You helped me make sense of this crazy world we live in. But now you are gone. Just ripped away from me without a second thought. I need you here to help me be strong. I love you. I wish to God I had the nerve before to tell you this. I wanted so badly to tell you last night but I was so afraid of what you might say and now I will never have that chance again. I know you're up in heaven with your mother. And I know you're no longer in pain. You're up there with God, can you ask him why he took you away from me? Why did he have to pick you? WHY? Tell him to help me understand the why. I can't do this without you. I'm selfish, I need you here with me now. I need to wake up with you by my side telling me everything will be alright. You will never know how much I need you or how much you mean to me. I can say the words out loud but I'm saying them to air. For you are not here beside me. I miss you so much. I wish you were here with me now. Just know you are in my heart now and forever. I love you. Until we meet again....
All my love in this world,
Jen
All that I was afraid to say I'm saying now. I wish I had the courage to tell you these things while you were still alive, here with me now. I will never understand why God had decided it was your time. And if God walked right up to me, I'd yell and scream and hit him for taking you away from me. You were suppose to be my happy ending and now you're gone. Just ripped away from me and I never got the chance to say goodbye. I miss you more then you'll ever know, and more then words can ever express. And it pains me so to think I'll never see your smiling face. I'll never get to hold you again or cuddle up next to you when we fall asleep. I'll never again have the chance to tell you how much I had fallen in love with you. You were my support. You helped me make sense of this crazy world we live in. But now you are gone. Just ripped away from me without a second thought. I need you here to help me be strong. I love you. I wish to God I had the nerve before to tell you this. I wanted so badly to tell you last night but I was so afraid of what you might say and now I will never have that chance again. I know you're up in heaven with your mother. And I know you're no longer in pain. You're up there with God, can you ask him why he took you away from me? Why did he have to pick you? WHY? Tell him to help me understand the why. I can't do this without you. I'm selfish, I need you here with me now. I need to wake up with you by my side telling me everything will be alright. You will never know how much I need you or how much you mean to me. I can say the words out loud but I'm saying them to air. For you are not here beside me. I miss you so much. I wish you were here with me now. Just know you are in my heart now and forever. I love you. Until we meet again....
All my love in this world,
Jen