Jun 17, 2005 13:03
For the longest time now I've had friends that have turned to me in times of trouble. I've always tried to be someone that people could talk to, and someone that could help you feel better if you found yourself feeling down. For a long time, I was very happy with that role. I felt like I was doing something to help people, and I felt like the people I was helping needed that. It was good. At this point though, I'm starting to feel like that isn't the case, or at least, that that isn't enough. With one friend in particular it seems like I'm somewhere to go to for help through rough times, and then that's it. This friend will call me up practically in tears, or sometimes even in tears and be looking for some way to cheer up. Obviously, I'm happy to help. After all, what are friends for? However, I have to confess that that takes its toll on people. That kind of depression starts to rub off after a while. Plus, the whole situation is kind of depressing on its own. So while I enjoy being able to help people through the harder times in their life, it'd be nice if I got to see some of the nicer times too. It'd be nice to have someone call me and tell me how happy they were that X or Y happened. I'd even accept it if this friend were to call me while they weren't crying. It'd seem that that's not my role though.
Anyways, I kind of feel like I'm whining, so I'm going to stop.
It would be nice though, once in a while, to be more than just a shoulder to cry on.