the truth?.... ever since i told you how i really feel about you and alex...and how he is ruining everything... i think you have been trying to hard to care about me...i feel like you are just pretending to check up on me...just because you know im pissed about you and alex..
and its not jealusy..so for whoever wants to think thats why im pissed at her...im not jealus...haha believe me im not jealus
i just think that you dont care about spending anymroe time with me..and your life revolves around him...and i think you care to much about what your mom thinks..i think your mom just cares about you haveing a boyfriend..i think thats all she wants out of you... like why do i deserver a huge attitude from her when you came to donnys with me? why? i dont understand at all...obviously its because you werent spending every wakeing moment with alex... i could go on forever..but i wont...
i still love you...and it makes me tear when i think about how i feel by snowboarding season we will barly be friends...
it might seem like i try to hard to care because i do care. i know that i spend so much time with alex, and barely any with you anymore. sometimes i feel like im the only one putting in the effort to talk to u, or try to make plans. i dont want us to be torn apart. look at what we had. we were sisters, with out the blood relation. i dont want us to become strangers. alex is gone now. the time ill be spending with him is at work this weekend..and occasionally when he comes back on weekends. a few people are even questioning if we stay together. i hope we do..but its life. anyway...i know your not jealous..and my mom. lets just not go there. im not doing this for her at all...if i was..then it wouldnt have lasted this long at all... i gotta go eat
sometimes i feel like im the only one putting in the effort to talk to u, or try to make plans.
you feel that way...because i know the only reason you are making plans is because alex is busy..and theres nothing else for you to do...why do i have to wait for alex to be busy or away for you to make plans..
no i dont wait for alex to not be around or be busy...i'd tell alex to forget our plans, and i'd go hang out with you...but u never seem like u want to or w/e..and you dont like hanging out with the both of us at the same time..so i dont even bother asking u to come..why dont you ever ask me to hang out or try to make plans with me?? alex isnt my life, although it may seem that way...and it does seem that way..its because none of my friends besides nicole ask me to hang out.
why dont you ever ask me to hang out or try to make plans with me??
umm i recall one night when i was going to jeremys...he called you up and asked if you wanted to come..and you said "can alex come"...yeah im sure you would drop your plans to come hang out with me...i dont believe that at all..
your ALWAYS with him...and i know it..why would i ask you to come hang out w/ me if i know your with him...just so i can hear you say.."well im hanging out w/ alex"
yeah, i didnt no at first that you were going. and whats the point of going for a half hour?? mommy refused to drive me. ok fine. next time ill hike there and back home. ill get to spend 2 minutes with the both of u and walk about 2 miles. and why didnt u say anything before?..u never try to talk things out. u bottle them up until i come to you.
yeah, i do love him. i dont try to make u feel like the bad person. and for once, i dont understand. you know what. i take all the blame. every single piece of it. i have open space to hang out with you and whoever else wants to.
oh god.. "you know what. i take all the blame. every single piece of it" stop it..thats so stupid...stop trying to make things end when its all just beginnning... and yeah you have open space now because alex is away.
yeah, i admit i have open space because alex is away. and that will give me a chance to see all my friends again, and get out of this 'alex' world. no offence, but ur making it seem like i should STAY in 'alex land' and never hang out with you. and now ive got the vibe that u basically never wanna hang out with me. i want things to end because i hate grudges. people should forgive and forget but thats not gunna happen.
the reason you are getting that "vibe" is because we dont have anything in common anymore...
and of course im going to hold a grude and its going to take me a hell of alot of time to forgive and forget because of all the pain and shit you put me through this summer...all because of one fucking asshole boy...thats such bullshit
what pain did i put you through?? yeah exactly. hes a boy. and you know what, as much as i love him, maybe ill end it with him. just for you. and ill still love him, with out a doubt. but i'll go back to the no title thing with him. i dont understand how bad it was for me to have a boyfriend, and the shit i put you through..
ok as for this little fight u 2 are having let me put some insight into it since i have my own land and all. 1st off and for most yes i understand that me and arianna spend a lot of time together but if i do recall i dont tell her too. I ask her what she is doing b4 i make any plans. 2nd off we dont do a lot when we do hang out so it wouldnt bother me and i doubt it bother her if she hung out with you. 3rd off i dont care if u were around when we chilled its just you dont like me at all so i never invite u. I dont know why you hate me but you do. and if it is what will make her happy ending it with me so that you and her can be friends by all means i rather her do it. I love her and if thats what it takes for her to be happy so be it. I just dont like be the reason u 2 are fighting so can you resolve ur diffrences and do whats best for the both of u and what ever it is ill understand.
i dont ask her to hang out with me because i know she is ALWAYS with you..or ALWAYS has plans with you...thats just the way it goes...and i am WAY over it...i dont care anymore...you to go and be in your own little land. i dont care anymore.
and she wont be happy if you 2 split up..because she want have you....and it wont make me any happier because whenever she is away from you for more then an hour she gets all emo..and barly talks and always has the bitchyist look on her face...agh. thats all i have to say...im SO sick of it.
the truth?....
ever since i told you how i really feel about you and alex...and how he is ruining everything...
i think you have been trying to hard to care about me...i feel like you are just pretending to check up on me...just because you know im pissed about you and alex..
and its not jealusy..so for whoever wants to think thats why im pissed at her...im not jealus...haha believe me im not jealus
i just think that you dont care about spending anymroe time with me..and your life revolves around him...and i think you care to much about what your mom thinks..i think your mom just cares about you haveing a boyfriend..i think thats all she wants out of you...
like why do i deserver a huge attitude from her when you came to donnys with me? why? i dont understand at all...obviously its because you werent spending every wakeing moment with alex...
i could go on forever..but i wont...
i still love you...and it makes me tear when i think about how i feel by snowboarding season we will barly be friends...
but if thats the way it goes...so be it...
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you feel that way...because i know the only reason you are making plans is because alex is busy..and theres nothing else for you to do...why do i have to wait for alex to be busy or away for you to make plans..
thats soo fucked up.
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umm i recall one night when i was going to jeremys...he called you up and asked if you wanted to come..and you said "can alex come"...yeah im sure you would drop your plans to come hang out with me...i dont believe that at all..
your ALWAYS with him...and i know it..why would i ask you to come hang out w/ me if i know your with him...just so i can hear you say.."well im hanging out w/ alex"
yeah awesome.
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and you always turn it around to make me feel like the bad person..
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"you know what. i take all the blame. every single piece of it" stop it..thats so stupid...stop trying to make things end when its all just beginnning...
and yeah you have open space now because alex is away.
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and of course im going to hold a grude and its going to take me a hell of alot of time to forgive and forget because of all the pain and shit you put me through this summer...all because of one fucking asshole boy...thats such bullshit
im so sick of this shit.
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you 2 make me sick
i dont ask her to hang out with me because i know she is ALWAYS with you..or ALWAYS has plans with you...thats just the way it goes...and i am WAY over it...i dont care anymore...you to go and be in your own little land. i dont care anymore.
and she wont be happy if you 2 split up..because she want have you....and it wont make me any happier because whenever she is away from you for more then an hour she gets all emo..and barly talks and always has the bitchyist look on her face...agh. thats all i have to say...im SO sick of it.
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p.s. thanks for the wonderful birthday present. i absolutely love it!
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bye
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