*disgruntledness*
where are all my friends? no one is online. *tear* my o my. im so cold. someone help me get off my one track mind...what am i gonna do when the only thing i can ever think about is derek? when im doing ANYTHING its just derek derek derek. im so in love with him its ridiculous. *sigh* today i was so comfortable with him laying next to me. then later, when he was laying on me and his head was on my chest and i was playing with his hair and just holding him and o geez. seriously guys...im pathetic. i almost cried today. i dont want this feeling to ever end. maybe im still in the new relationship euphoria? i hope not...its bin almost 4 months now. wow...thats insane. something about him just keeps me on the edge of my seat all the time. just waiting for whatever is to come next. its always something exciting tho. i never get sick of seeing him, i never get sick of just staring at him, or i never get sick of his kiss. its odd. i duno how to handle myself in some of these crazy situations. 'cept i know im completley oblivious to saddness, pain, and lonliness. and that my friends is the best thing in the world. the feeling of his touch, his lips, eyes, smile, hair, just everything. GOSH!! im sorry guys, u all prolly dont care to read all this, but this is so u all know that i am definatley going crazy. haha and its all good kiddies. haha. okay, i gotta go to sleep, im exhausted!!!!!!!!!!