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There's been a robbery. This isn't anything new. Theft happens all the time, and it takes away from our level of completeness and security. It shouldn't though. They say depression is a condition, one in which a chemical imbalance is typically the source. They're is healing to the pain or the seemingly perpetual loss. An absence of a daily ritual does seem like it would cause chronic mental pain.
My strength exerts itself with feelings toward destruction. I want to break free from a cage that I've been living in. This same strength feels deep within my bones and I believe that despite any constrictions, no atrophy could amount to prevent me from breaking this desk in-half, running through the wall in front of me, or lifting off through the ceiling in a mass of destruction leading into the sky thats open and free of any obstacles. That same feeling delves into cycling. I don't know if this is motivation or a need to expel excess energy, but it feels like I could exceed speed limits and tap into the world of wreckless-riding. It's like pushing yourself to a level that requires little to no error. Consequences increase significantly, and I'm not sure if I'm attracted to the danger or have lost control of what I believe I can do and what's physically impossible. One thing is for sure. This dream-state is affecting my reality and the more and more I'm turned on with these desires to break free from the laws that bind us, the less of a free spirit I feel. Maybe I'm chasing an invisible dragon or completely loosing touch with reality.