vacation is over.

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well, the vacation is over, not much accomplished cept for some fun times with the girls and i went to mardi-gras. i finally think i got over the dumbass that i should have never liked in the first place. i watched the o.c. omg it was magical! seth ugh adorable i want him. im so mad at myself lately i told myself i would never let the media affect me, and lately it has so much. i feel like i should be like really skinny, i want to be too though. i am so over regretting things i do, its the past i think people can get over it. i need to go back to my old-self where i could care less what the stupid "popular" snobs think of me. i understand i might have to wait to get a good boyfriend probly till college, but it would be worth the wait. i just feel no one in the school really would like me for me, or like want me as a gf, or that i wouldnt want them...whatever though im not gonna go on about boys. mardi-gras was so fun! got lots of beads and stood up front with the little kids!! haha! im listening to the boys 2 men song seth adn summer were listening to when they were thinking about eachother...haha so cute. i just keep thinking something like that could happen to me, but ugh i should probly get back to reality. hah. im so sick of going to school hating it. im just going to go in tomorrow with a good outlook, and have fun like i used to i mean in the social sense haha not school work. lol. yeah well thats probly good for now.
nighty night.
xoxo
<3<3<3 --Lauren