nothing really matters
its 1:30 saturday night and im sitting here
no matter how hard i try, nothing ever goes through
i did everything i had to do so i could go this weekend and i have spent the entire weekend in my room
im sick of it, should i just stop trying?
my jobs okay i guess, its fuckin mcondalds...
i got the entire weekend off and nothing, not one cool thing
friday after school i had sum fun, only to get trampled
i went rallying in with my friends in jamul, and my buddy who was driving spun out off the road and we almost rolled and almost hit a tree
but with some luck we did roll or flip, or hit the tree
thank god we didnt
but we spent two hours digging his car out
then we went came to my house and cleaned up his car and fixed the dents
after that i just sat here, where i am now
i didnt even get to go surfing
it makes me wonder how good of friends i really have
i have that feeling of unwantedness
it sucks
i called everyone i could think of
and only travis wanted to hang out
but not till 10 tonight cuz he was going to a show at soma
then afterwards he was supposed to call me and we were gunna go to a double kegger in alpine
but no
he didnt call or answer his phone
so i just sat here waiting all night
grandma loaned me twenty bucks
and i bought a monster, but im just gunna buy some weed with the rest
college seems so far out of grasp
scholarships are so hard to obtain
and im going to have a huge loan to take out to cover tuition
mom wont shut up, she never has something assuring to say
only critisisms and lectures for me
so i dont talk to her
but i think i finaly convinced her into letting me get my ears peirced
but of course, work wont let me
i guess im just going to have to take them out when im there
im out of cigarettes... fuck
hopefully dio will hook it up fat at 2 grams for 10
then ill have sum money for a pack
whatever tho
if i fix arts car he said he'd hook it up with some bud
that'd be cool
im reading a new book
its cool i guess
...
ugh
i need a girl
i need some reasurance, some one to complete me
not just a fuck buddy
it turns out that shane doesnt really care about what happened between me and his sister
bobby opened his fat mouth and everyone knew, then kris told shane is the most blunt way possible
and i didnt really want him to know cuz hes a really good friend of mine
but i guess he's okay with it
well i get to work tomorrow at 4, thats cool cuz i need the money for a lot of things
... im going to go read and try to fall asleep
"i dont care where you come from, as long as you come to me"
no matter how hard i try, nothing ever goes through
i did everything i had to do so i could go this weekend and i have spent the entire weekend in my room
im sick of it, should i just stop trying?
my jobs okay i guess, its fuckin mcondalds...
i got the entire weekend off and nothing, not one cool thing
friday after school i had sum fun, only to get trampled
i went rallying in with my friends in jamul, and my buddy who was driving spun out off the road and we almost rolled and almost hit a tree
but with some luck we did roll or flip, or hit the tree
thank god we didnt
but we spent two hours digging his car out
then we went came to my house and cleaned up his car and fixed the dents
after that i just sat here, where i am now
i didnt even get to go surfing
it makes me wonder how good of friends i really have
i have that feeling of unwantedness
it sucks
i called everyone i could think of
and only travis wanted to hang out
but not till 10 tonight cuz he was going to a show at soma
then afterwards he was supposed to call me and we were gunna go to a double kegger in alpine
but no
he didnt call or answer his phone
so i just sat here waiting all night
grandma loaned me twenty bucks
and i bought a monster, but im just gunna buy some weed with the rest
college seems so far out of grasp
scholarships are so hard to obtain
and im going to have a huge loan to take out to cover tuition
mom wont shut up, she never has something assuring to say
only critisisms and lectures for me
so i dont talk to her
but i think i finaly convinced her into letting me get my ears peirced
but of course, work wont let me
i guess im just going to have to take them out when im there
im out of cigarettes... fuck
hopefully dio will hook it up fat at 2 grams for 10
then ill have sum money for a pack
whatever tho
if i fix arts car he said he'd hook it up with some bud
that'd be cool
im reading a new book
its cool i guess
...
ugh
i need a girl
i need some reasurance, some one to complete me
not just a fuck buddy
it turns out that shane doesnt really care about what happened between me and his sister
bobby opened his fat mouth and everyone knew, then kris told shane is the most blunt way possible
and i didnt really want him to know cuz hes a really good friend of mine
but i guess he's okay with it
well i get to work tomorrow at 4, thats cool cuz i need the money for a lot of things
... im going to go read and try to fall asleep
"i dont care where you come from, as long as you come to me"