i never wanted unrequited love
I wish I could exist in this state for longer. The state where sleep and fatigue dulls my senses and thus my pain is more detached from me. I can type this right now without the heart wrenching agony of the day.
Branden, you'll never know and I'll never tell you how much you ignited me in our time together. Every part of me came alive for you. My youth and beauty never seemed to have such a purpose until it was primed toward your attentions. My wit and charm never seemed to be as meaningful when we weren't having our long debates and discussions. My boundless desire and passions never as awakened as under your touch. Everything about me felt dormant before you. Every tool I possessed within me seemed tailor made to seek your affection. Why did it have to be you that brought this out in me? You never had the capacity to see how right we fit, and when you did you ran from it.
Branden, you'll never know and I'll never tell you how much you ignited me in our time together. Every part of me came alive for you. My youth and beauty never seemed to have such a purpose until it was primed toward your attentions. My wit and charm never seemed to be as meaningful when we weren't having our long debates and discussions. My boundless desire and passions never as awakened as under your touch. Everything about me felt dormant before you. Every tool I possessed within me seemed tailor made to seek your affection. Why did it have to be you that brought this out in me? You never had the capacity to see how right we fit, and when you did you ran from it.