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i wish we could go on an adventure. when i think about the idea jennifer had of renting out our rooms and going anywhere for a while i get excited... until i remember some stupid responsibility or another:
"what do i do about my job? they probably wouldn't want me leaving for one or two months..."
goddammit.... i wish things could be more spontaneous. all the planning: renting the rooms- having people look at them- setting up to leave my job and if i can't having to find a new one- making sure i saved enough for the trip and my bills for that month- etc etc. takes at least half the fun of it away. i'd be too worried about having to find a job when we get back to have fun and relax on a trip. i feel so stuck and it all has to do with money. i hate money. i hate this debt hanging over my head. i hate working at a coffeeshop making just enough to get by. i have to start doing something about all of this instead of just settling for it all.
"what do i do about my job? they probably wouldn't want me leaving for one or two months..."
goddammit.... i wish things could be more spontaneous. all the planning: renting the rooms- having people look at them- setting up to leave my job and if i can't having to find a new one- making sure i saved enough for the trip and my bills for that month- etc etc. takes at least half the fun of it away. i'd be too worried about having to find a job when we get back to have fun and relax on a trip. i feel so stuck and it all has to do with money. i hate money. i hate this debt hanging over my head. i hate working at a coffeeshop making just enough to get by. i have to start doing something about all of this instead of just settling for it all.