soooooo, anyways.
BIG MISTAKE.
haha
of course i am doing alot better then i thought, but i seriously need to try harder, and either get on some kind of antiexty meds or some shit..
another thing, i am constantly feeling like i made a huge mistake, and hopefully i can fix it or just somewhat get away form the misserable feeling i constantly feel.
sometime i feel like this is way worse then what chris made me feel like years ago.
WHICH I AM FUCKING GLAD he treats me way better then i could ever imageing and i am finally happy with him.
now goober on the other hand.
im gonna fucking slap him.
fuck that fucker.
i should seriously goo the fuck home, cuz obviously i am not good enough for him to be a friend
and a gf at the sametime. im sorry i am not a fucking relationship person, and i knew this, i really shouldnt have gotten in a fucking relationship. i knew better.
phhh....fuck.
and it sucks cuz i have lived with him for partically a year now, and i want to leave!
but i DONT want to go fucking home and live with steve and my mom.
FUCK THAT SHIT.
but i wonder somtimes.....if that would be better. hmm
i need to GET A FUCKING JOB.
and like move on.
memo to self.
geez now only would i actaully take my words into consideration...... -.- am such a fucking retard, and i want to get fucking plasterd!!
grr.
haha
of course i am doing alot better then i thought, but i seriously need to try harder, and either get on some kind of antiexty meds or some shit..
another thing, i am constantly feeling like i made a huge mistake, and hopefully i can fix it or just somewhat get away form the misserable feeling i constantly feel.
sometime i feel like this is way worse then what chris made me feel like years ago.
WHICH I AM FUCKING GLAD he treats me way better then i could ever imageing and i am finally happy with him.
now goober on the other hand.
im gonna fucking slap him.
fuck that fucker.
i should seriously goo the fuck home, cuz obviously i am not good enough for him to be a friend
and a gf at the sametime. im sorry i am not a fucking relationship person, and i knew this, i really shouldnt have gotten in a fucking relationship. i knew better.
phhh....fuck.
and it sucks cuz i have lived with him for partically a year now, and i want to leave!
but i DONT want to go fucking home and live with steve and my mom.
FUCK THAT SHIT.
but i wonder somtimes.....if that would be better. hmm
i need to GET A FUCKING JOB.
and like move on.
memo to self.
geez now only would i actaully take my words into consideration...... -.- am such a fucking retard, and i want to get fucking plasterd!!
grr.