Breaking the cycle....?
Ok lets talk about Tuesday night, I IMed Rob to ask if he was done class, so i could come and get the stuff i left there from his birthday party. We havent talked for a really long time and I remembered that he still owed me some money so i asked when he could pay me back. He just says hes broke and when i tryed to figure out a way to pay me back little by little he wouldnt answer me. Then he starts going on about how ive been lying to him for 4 years. I had no idea what he was talking about, but he just says you should know what im talking about. Well news flash...i didnt. Im starting to get supper annoyed cuz i want to know what hes talking about. And finally after a half an hour of "you should know" bullshit. He says " Mike and I arent the only ones you've had sex with". My mouth dropped open, i yelled for everyone who was home to hear "WHAT?". Luckily it was just my sister. She came in and i said to her to you see this, he's trying to tell me i slept with someone else before him. Apparently i admitted to someone that i did, and i have no clue who that person is either. I asked if i was drunk or something,when i admitted it, but he didnt know. He wouldnt tell me who i supposedly slept with or who had told him that i admitted to it. After another half hour of arguing over the phone he finally told me who i supposedly slept with. But he wont tell me who i said it. I'm not mad at whoever told him, i just want to know how i gave them that idea,the only thing i can figure is maybe i said something and it was taken the wrong way. Whoever told him, if you read this could you let me know it was you, i not mad i swear, i just need to know what happened and what i said cuz i dont rememeber any of it.
Robs says that after he found that out alot of things fell into place, but he didnt tell me what things. Then started saying how i havent there for him when he really needed me. I was his best friend. All his other friends were saying to " oh poor rob its gonna be ok", and i didnt and thats what friends do. Well let me tell you something Rob, my best friend would believe me when i said i never slept with anyone before him. But no i cant be telling the truth right im a lying slut. This whole incident made me realize i did the right thing by not waiting for you this time. Because had i waited had i given you the chance to miss me and taken you back, you would have just broken up with me last Tuesday for no reason. That cycle that we had throughout our relationship would have kept going. I'm not gonna sit around and beg him to believe me. As far as im concerned the friendship between Rob and I no longer exsists. I dont want to be friends with him. I cant be around him and know that in his mind he has such low opinion of me, and thinks im lying to him.
Robs says that after he found that out alot of things fell into place, but he didnt tell me what things. Then started saying how i havent there for him when he really needed me. I was his best friend. All his other friends were saying to " oh poor rob its gonna be ok", and i didnt and thats what friends do. Well let me tell you something Rob, my best friend would believe me when i said i never slept with anyone before him. But no i cant be telling the truth right im a lying slut. This whole incident made me realize i did the right thing by not waiting for you this time. Because had i waited had i given you the chance to miss me and taken you back, you would have just broken up with me last Tuesday for no reason. That cycle that we had throughout our relationship would have kept going. I'm not gonna sit around and beg him to believe me. As far as im concerned the friendship between Rob and I no longer exsists. I dont want to be friends with him. I cant be around him and know that in his mind he has such low opinion of me, and thinks im lying to him.