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I wish I had these words down. I can't recall what I was thinking.
I've been missing out on sleep, due to my constant thought process.
I wish I could share these words with you. Truly I do.
I am feeling such amazement, at the worst time.
I realized last night that the ability to feel so awful is a gift that I will gladly except, only because sometimes we need something to remind us we're still human.
I also realized, maybe I'm not the person I thought I was, I always thought I was a good person until I noticed I wasn't.
This slow music makes my head so unstable.
But the same four tracks have been on repeat for days, and please don't change the station, because I'm not ready to move on, I'm not ready to let go.
Note to self: You can get through this.
I remember my never dying optimism, where did it go?
Well, while I'm working hard to regain my self esteem, confidence, and ability to cope, I will just stay solitary in my head.
Crash. It just hit. Damn it. Reality strikes again. Oh my gosh.
What am I doing? Seriously what the heck.
I thought I could do this....
but really.
I can't.
The cursor is blinking, waiting for me to move along.
but since I can't I'll just stop here.
I've been missing out on sleep, due to my constant thought process.
I wish I could share these words with you. Truly I do.
I am feeling such amazement, at the worst time.
I realized last night that the ability to feel so awful is a gift that I will gladly except, only because sometimes we need something to remind us we're still human.
I also realized, maybe I'm not the person I thought I was, I always thought I was a good person until I noticed I wasn't.
This slow music makes my head so unstable.
But the same four tracks have been on repeat for days, and please don't change the station, because I'm not ready to move on, I'm not ready to let go.
Note to self: You can get through this.
I remember my never dying optimism, where did it go?
Well, while I'm working hard to regain my self esteem, confidence, and ability to cope, I will just stay solitary in my head.
Crash. It just hit. Damn it. Reality strikes again. Oh my gosh.
What am I doing? Seriously what the heck.
I thought I could do this....
but really.
I can't.
The cursor is blinking, waiting for me to move along.
but since I can't I'll just stop here.