Death Fic
1. Goodbye
Natalie. My love. My life.
If you're reading this, I didn't get a chance to I'm not there anymore. Obviously, I don't know the exact circumstances or...
But I know that, if you're reading this, I didn't get a chance to say goodbye.
And--
There are so many things that I have left to say to you. Every moment that I was with you, it was like... like the world was brighter. Everything was just better when you were by my side, and every time that I had to be without you was torture. The days when I didn't get to hold you, to tell you how much I love you... those days were hell to me, and I'm glad that they were few and far between.
It wasn't just about holding you, though.
I don't know why I couldn't ever tell you all of this to your face. Maybe I thought that you would just know. Honestly, I hope that you did, but now I regret not having said everything every day. I should have told you how all the little things about you made me fall more and more in love, every single day. I don't think that a moment went by when I stopped thinking about how much I love you.
Natalie, I will always love you. To the ends of the earth and beyond, because a love this strong doesn't just disappear when I--
I know I'm not there to hear you promise this, but... I need you to promise, to yourself, that you won't stop being you. That you won't stop that little grin that you get when you're taking care of your plants, and the way that your eyes just light up when you see the puffapods bloom (and you'll have to promise to drop them on the floor for me, too).
And always remember the most important thing. Well, maybe it's not the most important, but it's right up there with... everything else.
Remember my Aunt Margie.
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Come back to me, and forgive everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Just know that... when I wrote this song, I lied. I can't love you until my dying day, because my love for you will never die.
I love you.
I can't say it enough. I love you. I love you.
Goodbye.