Venting Steam
I am so worn down.
In my Advanced Acting Styles class, I am doing a scene from Chekhov's The Seagull. This is the hardest character I've played, partly because she is much older than I am and partly because I can not relate to her situation.
Arkidina (me) is in a relationship with Trigorin. Trigorin has become infatuated with a young girl and wants to leave me. Sounds easy right? The guy that I am working mostly just stands there, so I have to do all of this unnecessary work to get him to do things. We had a session with the teacher today where he helped us. The approaches my partner and I have been completely opposite what they should be. There is not much time to turn it around because the final is tomorrow. I'm sure none of this is making sense to other people. I love this part and I know I could conquer it with more time and possibly a partner that I "click" with. I am frustrated that I haven't gotten to the point that I want, and tomorrow is the end. I am trying so hard to do well and get recognition and this makes me feel like I am not trying hard enough.
I also am behind on homework. I have an 8-10 page paper that was due yesterday which I haven't really started. I also have a prompt book for my playscript analysis class.
Tonight I want to put time on hold, go home and hug my family, and sleep in my own bed... preferably with Sparky next to me.
I never thought the human touch could mean so much, but going weeks and months at a time without a simple hug or a shoulder to rest your head on gives the feeling of lonliness in a way. Especially on days like today when I could use some encouragement.
POSITIVE:
On a badass note: Jannah opened her store today and I am SO proud of her. It takes balls and a ton of work to do something like that. AND Danielle comes in a day and a half. I think this weekend will be a huge relief and a good escape.
In my Advanced Acting Styles class, I am doing a scene from Chekhov's The Seagull. This is the hardest character I've played, partly because she is much older than I am and partly because I can not relate to her situation.
Arkidina (me) is in a relationship with Trigorin. Trigorin has become infatuated with a young girl and wants to leave me. Sounds easy right? The guy that I am working mostly just stands there, so I have to do all of this unnecessary work to get him to do things. We had a session with the teacher today where he helped us. The approaches my partner and I have been completely opposite what they should be. There is not much time to turn it around because the final is tomorrow. I'm sure none of this is making sense to other people. I love this part and I know I could conquer it with more time and possibly a partner that I "click" with. I am frustrated that I haven't gotten to the point that I want, and tomorrow is the end. I am trying so hard to do well and get recognition and this makes me feel like I am not trying hard enough.
I also am behind on homework. I have an 8-10 page paper that was due yesterday which I haven't really started. I also have a prompt book for my playscript analysis class.
Tonight I want to put time on hold, go home and hug my family, and sleep in my own bed... preferably with Sparky next to me.
I never thought the human touch could mean so much, but going weeks and months at a time without a simple hug or a shoulder to rest your head on gives the feeling of lonliness in a way. Especially on days like today when I could use some encouragement.
POSITIVE:
On a badass note: Jannah opened her store today and I am SO proud of her. It takes balls and a ton of work to do something like that. AND Danielle comes in a day and a half. I think this weekend will be a huge relief and a good escape.