curiosity killed the cat, good thing im not a pussy

[droogskull27]

well the past couple of days have been strange to say the least, i got a stomach rocker done on my that says droogs and its really fucking itchy, julie and i have been really off and on, and i found out some stuff about her that really made me scared. but we are working through it and becoming closer because of it, so i guess its working out for the better.

i dont know what it is but the people you love the most are always the people that hurt you the worst and scare you the most. its a fucked up joke played on human beings, personally i dont get it. its just the fact that i cant do anything about it and i cant help at all. that makes me feel so helpless. i cant help the only person i care about more then anything. i swear if it came down to it i wouldnt know what to do without her and i would die to keep it that way, cause if at least i died she would be safe and i could have peace of mind. but that would be too easy. so life goes on.

i just hope thing gets better before they get worse again.

p.s. to my one and only, i love you more then life itself. youre the most beautiful thing i have ever seen and i could not live without you. you are what i live for and i wake up everyday just for that reason. end corny rant.