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PaleXasXthestars [9:34 PM]: Maybe he just didn't want to hurt your feelings.
Neonxxnation [9:36 PM]: Perhaps, but at this point things that people say, more so over the Internet, doesn't hurt me. He knows that
PaleXasXthestars [9:38 PM]: But, what he says does hurt you.
Neonxxnation [9:39 PM]: Not that stuff, I mean, I wanted to know what people liked and disliked about me, no hard feelings.
PaleXasXthestars [9:41 PM]: Terribly sorry if I'm out of line adn what not saying this, but.. You're always wanting to please him though. And you get to the point where you'd change anything about yourself to do that. So, if you here what he doesn't like, you'd probably try to improve yourself to his standerds. Maybe not though. Just an observation I guess.
Neonxxnation [9:42 PM]: Mhmm. I agree. Would I be out of line to ask you where you got that from?
PaleXasXthestars [9:56 PM]: Reading your journal entries I suppose. After two years of reading what you say about him in them, about when he makes you happy and when he makes you sad, it gets pretty easy to tell what you really mean and what your feeling, even if you kind of push it aside for a while. Like, when you get sad because of something he said, it seems like you dwell on it, and try to change it. Or you blame yourself for not being good enough, and than try to fix it. And, when he makes you happy, you go on a natural high, for everything seems perfect. Than it breaks again, and the cycle keeps going. It's not really a one step forward, two steps back thing, but, it can go down hill, and than back up, and so forth. And it always seems that when you change the most, is when you had posted a conversation you had with him around that time about something unpleasent. Kind of vague I suppose, but does that anwser it?
Neonxxnation [9:58 PM]: Yeah..
PaleXasXthestars [9:58 PM]: Mkay. Sorry if any of that sounded mean or something.
Unfortunately, she has a point.