My first entry!
What to say. Ill just explain my purpose for starting one of these..... I used to have a real journal in high school. It didnt have many entries because i am not very consistant with anything really. But i read it today and i completely forgot some of the things that were going through in my head. I was different, but the same. Its wierd. Also I enjoy making observations about the world and it feels great to write them down sometimes. These are wierd because i am generally speaking. I dont know who is gonna read this. I just know in about a year or more i will probably read this again and laugh at myself. I treat people differently. It may be a social anxiety but it exists. With my music friends we make fun of each other and rip apart songs we love and hate. I usually do not have a serious tone and i love talking shit to them. With my friends that are girls i just talk about things with more sensitivity. Its not like i try to be sensitive, but i feel everyone is. Girls just appreciate that aspect of humans more than guys. And there is a huge sense of akwardness that comes with being sensitive to your guy friends. With my other friends i am usually not serious and always looking to laugh. It may take me awhile to find my tone for these writings. Gonna have to find a balance of pessimism, optimism, sensitivity, objectivity, and realism. Weird stuff. ANother reason i am starting this is because i read some of my friends whenever i am bored at a computer. I just felt really creepy reading everyones after awhile and not offering any comments or my own outlook on life. Got a huge Chem test tomorrow. im really behind.