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well i guess it was inevitable......... i tryed to avoid it......... i knew it was gonna happen.......... yet i continued to lead my self to b lieve it could all b fixed and everything would "be okay", well im only stating this obvious because if u dont already know (which is pretty imppossible seeing how its desert view, rumor mill, big mouth USA!) JEFF DUMPED ME! and its no big secret i was crying! (still am) as hard as i tryed to hide it it didnt work, even ms mendez knows! and what sucks is everyone was telling me to brake up w/ him but no, like i said i thought i could fix it , i kept telling myself if he really does love me like he claimed we could work though it but i guess he didnt.........which also made it worse b cuz when he said it and i said it back i meant it and i guess thats when i let my guard down and let myself get attached thinking its "safe" 2 and as soon as i do this happens! no matter what people told me i still loved him and i guess all thats left to b said is that it was a mistake!..............it was a mistake to let my guard down..........it was a mistake to fall in love............and it was a BIG mistake to think he loved me back!................. but oh well..............and what also bothers me is the stupid hypocrites that say one thing and when they think u cant hear them say another but oh well it helps u realize who can b trusted! omgosh ive cryed so much today im on my 4th crying headache and what sucks more is the fact i have to hide it from my "loving" parents so that they dont tell me "i told u so" but yeah i guess this is gonna b the 1st in a line of gut-wrentching heart splitting break ups ha but yeah now i know better!