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"i wanna say stank you...very much... for picking me up and bringing me back to this world..." - Andre
foshizzle...
no.. i'm not in love again... far from it... my heart is still trying to heal from the bruises of the last one... ugh.. bruised.. that's what it is.. not torn to pieces.. i'd never let it get that far again... that's why i'm single again.. i couldn't keep going down that path that would lead to constant heartache and pain... no sir!.. not for me... but i am hurt... my heart is intact, but just below the surface it's tender and painful... bruised... but bruises don't leave scars and they always heal and disappear... the love that was like fire for my ex is now nothing but a burnt out match... barely smoldering... that's what happens when you realize what you have and what you thought you had... reality check and it was a slap in the face... lots of tears shed over this...now it's all about healing... it's hard.. trying not to think about it... trying not to think about the plans we had for the future and how i gotta make new plans on my own... but it's great having people to love you and support you... understand you and comfort you... you guys are the best.. i love you so much!
and nothing gets you thru a break up like another guy... someone new to take your mind off what you lost and make you think about what you can gain from all this hurt... someone who makes you feel good about yourself again.. someone who has always been there, but you never noticed... someone who is there now and isn't going anywhere anytime soon.. someone who gives you unexpected calls and text messages that brighten your day even if you are having the worst day... that guy is nice to have... he isn't the rebound... rebounds never work.. and i don't wanna miss out on something that could be super good someday... yeah.. someday, not now... apparently, we're on the same page about relationships.. we're not trying to have one right now... no doubt.. but he did pick me back up when i felt like i was struggling to get back up... he's the homie.. haha.. everyday i learn more about him and it makes me smile... haha.. thanks man! thanks for being someone i can walk with... at least for now.. who knows what the future holds.. i don't.. that's for damn sure...
aite.. enough rambling..
look what i found... sneaky ass Seaspot got me at Baltic last Friday.. muthafudaduds! can you find me? haha.. shit
foshizzle...
no.. i'm not in love again... far from it... my heart is still trying to heal from the bruises of the last one... ugh.. bruised.. that's what it is.. not torn to pieces.. i'd never let it get that far again... that's why i'm single again.. i couldn't keep going down that path that would lead to constant heartache and pain... no sir!.. not for me... but i am hurt... my heart is intact, but just below the surface it's tender and painful... bruised... but bruises don't leave scars and they always heal and disappear... the love that was like fire for my ex is now nothing but a burnt out match... barely smoldering... that's what happens when you realize what you have and what you thought you had... reality check and it was a slap in the face... lots of tears shed over this...now it's all about healing... it's hard.. trying not to think about it... trying not to think about the plans we had for the future and how i gotta make new plans on my own... but it's great having people to love you and support you... understand you and comfort you... you guys are the best.. i love you so much!
and nothing gets you thru a break up like another guy... someone new to take your mind off what you lost and make you think about what you can gain from all this hurt... someone who makes you feel good about yourself again.. someone who has always been there, but you never noticed... someone who is there now and isn't going anywhere anytime soon.. someone who gives you unexpected calls and text messages that brighten your day even if you are having the worst day... that guy is nice to have... he isn't the rebound... rebounds never work.. and i don't wanna miss out on something that could be super good someday... yeah.. someday, not now... apparently, we're on the same page about relationships.. we're not trying to have one right now... no doubt.. but he did pick me back up when i felt like i was struggling to get back up... he's the homie.. haha.. everyday i learn more about him and it makes me smile... haha.. thanks man! thanks for being someone i can walk with... at least for now.. who knows what the future holds.. i don't.. that's for damn sure...
aite.. enough rambling..
look what i found... sneaky ass Seaspot got me at Baltic last Friday.. muthafudaduds! can you find me? haha.. shit